You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

T H I R T E E N

I read Jake's text saying he's waiting a few blocks away and I get out the house as silently as I can.

"Get in" he says through the rolled down window

I get in and sit in the passengers seat. He hands me a bottle of tequila. I shake my head

"I'm not in the mood" I say

"Are you okay baby" he says

I nod not saying much and he leans over and kisses me. I kiss him back but then the kisses become more passionate on his part almost aggressive and I feel his hands roam up beneath my shirt and I get uncomfortable and back away a little. He pulls me back in to kiss me and I try to pull back but he's holding me tight

"I'm not in the mood" I say getting away from his hold a little

"I don't care" he says as he jumps over to the passenger side and holds me down and starts to forcefully kiss me

I don't know where I get the strength from but I'm able to get one of my hands free and fight back a little. He's still kissing me so this time I kiss back and get a hold of his lip and bite down on it as hard as I can

"OUCH YOU STUPID BITCH" he says letting me go but still being on top of me and I can see blood running from his lip.

I open the door and I get the strength to kick him in the balls so he can get off me and I run as fast as I can to go home.

"YOURE GONNA REGRET THIS" he yells out the window and speeds off

I get home ten minutes later as we were parked in a nearby park

I delete the texts with Jake asking him to come by and place my phone right where I left it and go upstairs to the the guest room where my mom left me.

I sit in bed all night, the tears never stop

I see the sun rising through the bedroom window as tears continue to fall.

Later I hear my mom and Travis downstairs and I assume he leaves as the door closes and I hear a car drive off.

I want my mom to come upstairs to comfort me but she never does and I'm too prideful to go downstairs and admit I'm wrong.

It's not until I assume might be 3pm that I start getting sleepy, my stomach's grumbling as I'm starving but again I don't want to go downstairs. Its unlike my mom to let me starve, she won't ever let me even skip a meal, she makes me at least eat a few bites even if I'm not hungry. My mom must be expecting me to take the first step too but I don't even have the energy to get up. I haven't even let her hear my cry, I've just been quietly sobbing. The exhaustion finally takes over my body and I fall asleep.

I have a nightmare about last night and wake up crying but since I'm asleep my cries are loud and I sit up in bed in panic. I know my mom heard as I hear her footsteps running up the stairs and she barges into my room.

I'm crying in bed as I have my head on my knees

My mom sees me and throws herself on me trying to comfort me.

"It's okay"

"I'm sorry"

My mom doesn't answer she just rubs my back in an attempt to comfort me but I'm still sobbing

"I'm sorry" I say again "you were right"

My mom looks like she saw a ghost, she's so surprised by my words, not even a few hours before I was so adamant about this.

"Shh sh it's okay" my mom says trying to comfort me, after a few minutes I manage to calm down and I speak up again

"You were right"