You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

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"Kas! Are you okay?" Travis says snapping me out of my thoughts

"Huh?"

"You're hyperventilating, let's go backstage" he says touching my shoulder to lead me

"Don't touch me!" I cry

"I'm sorry come on" he says as we're escorted backstage

I take a seat as I feel really shaky, I feel like I can't control my legs from shaking up and down and I'm crying uncontrollably, I don't even know why, but my mom singing that song triggered me

"Kas, breathe with me" Travis says kneeling next to me  and holding my hand

"Don't touch me!" I sob

"What's going on?" Tree asks coming in

"She's having a panic attack"

"Kas, try to follow my breathing" tree says sitting next to me

I try to look at tree but I cant breathe properly

"I can't" I say still hyperventilating

"Here try to take some water" Travis says handing me a water bottle

I take a sip but I still feel uneasy

"Kas, I need you to look around the room and look for 5 things you can see okay?" Tree says using the technique my mom uses when I can't regulate my breathing to take my mind off of the situation

My moms purse, a chair, my hoodie on the couch, a lamp, tree

I nod slightly

"Now I need you to concentrate and think of four things you can hear"

My breathing, trees voice, my mom singing in the background, the sound of my feet hitting the ground as they shake

"What are three things you can feel?"

My skin as I check my pulse, the leather couch sticking on my thighs as I wear shorts, my hair on my neck

"What are two things you can smell?"

Travis' cologne, the leather on the couch

"What is one thing you can taste?"

My gum I had been chewing

I look at tree and nod, signaling that I'm much calmer, my breathing is still a little fast, but I'm  calming down.

"Thank you" I whisper to tree and get up from the couch to go to the restroom to splash my face with cold water

"Sorry about yelling" I tell Travis quietly as I sit next to him, trees not here anymore, I assume she went to get my mom "I don't know what got into me"

"Kas it's okay"

"It's just that-" I sigh and take a deep breath "I think it was the song, sorry that you didn't keep watching moms show because of me"

"Don't worry, I don't mind"

I just nod slightly looking at the floor, I feel a little guilty that I yelled at him and that he's here taking care of me instead of enjoying moms show like he should be

"Kas, can I ask you something?"

"Sure"

"What exactly triggers these attacks? Just so I know what topics to avoid"