You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

f o r t y - t h r e e

"Tay, it'll be okay" he says spooning me in bed and moving my hair out of my face

"No, it won't, I'm scared, I-"

"Tay, we make a good team, we'll manage, I mean you have the experience, I'll teach mys-"

"NO, TRAVIS YOU DONT UNDERSTAND" I sob

"Then make me understand baby"

"I-"

"I don't-"

"I'm not-"

"I DONT WANT TO HAVE A BABY"

"Tay are you saying that-?" He asks sitting up in bed shocked

And I nod still sobbing

"I can't have a baby right now, or ever, it's not something I want!"

"Tay, I need some time", he says getting up from bed and leaving the room

Ughhh

I'm so stupid

I finally find the love of my life

And I'll lose him because of this

But I can't have a baby

And I know he really wants to be a dad, and if I can't give it to him, then I guess it's for the best

🤍🤍🤍

"Tay, we need to talk" Travis says coming in to the bedroom a few hours later

I sit up nodding, my eyes hurt as I've been crying all day

"Tay..." he starts softly and immediately the water works start on my part

"Babe, it's okay" he says hugging me and I sob into his neck "if you don't want this, I understand, it's your choice anyway, I'm sorry for leaving earlier, I was just a little upset"

"Trav, you deserve someone that can give you the kids you've always wanted"

"No tay, I want you, i want you more than I want a child of my own" he says placing a peck on my lips "and I'll be with you Every step of the way, I'll go with you to the doctor okay?"

"I'm sorry for not wanting to go through with this pregnancy" I say burying myself in his chest

"You don't have to apologize babe, I understand" he says kissing my head "now come here, you need to rest" he says laying me down

We stay staring at the ceiling for a while, before Travis breaks the silence

"Tay?"

"Yeah?"

"Before we um- can I-" he says pointing to my stomach

I nod and give him a weak smile, lifting my shirt up for him, even though I'm obviously not showing

Travis places his hand on my stomach and slowly rubs small circles over it

I flinch at the cold touch of his hand at first

He rests his head on stomach to be close to it

"Hey baby, this is your daddy, and I love you very much, but mommy and I can't take care of you right now, but we still love you" he says and can tell he's smiling