You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter

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"Diego! Oh my god i haven't seen you in a few weeks!" I say hugging him "i didn't know you were coming"

"I wasn't, but I saw your story on your finsta, I figured I'd come hang out with you" he smiles "Want to go sit down?"

"Sure, want to go grab a drink first?"

"Oh you know I'm not much of a drinker, I'll just grab a water, but we can go get you a drink" he says

"Actually, I think I'll just get a water too" I smile

We both walk over to the backyard and sit down on the grass with our waters

"So how have you been, you've been really quiet lately?"

"Yeah sorry, there's just a lot that's been going on"

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine, don't really want to trauma dump on you" I chuckle

"Hey, it doesn't bother me, if you need someone to let it out to, I'm here and besides you know I'm a bit nosy" he jokes

I chuckle at his comment

"No but seriously, I'm here if you need anything, you know I won't tell your business to anyone" he says giving me his pinky

I smile at him, he knows pinky promises are my thing

"Well I hope you have time cause it's been a hell of a week"

"For you, I have all the time of the world" he smiles

"Well i actually don't feel comfortable with the first part of my week, but then my mom was pregnant and I honestly felt so uncomfortable, like I was being replaced."

"Kas, your mom loves you, I don't think she was trying to replace you"

"I know that's just what it felt like in my heart you know? Like I'm not enough, and I know it sounds stupid but-"

"It's not stupid Kas, your feelings are valid" he smiles

"Anyways that's just what it felt like, it would've been weird to have a sibling so much younger than me, and I was scared that my mom would forget about me when she had the baby"

"Kassie, it's normal to feel like this, I remember being 5 and being so jealous because my brother was being born"

"Yeah but you were five, I'm sixteen, it's not normal behavior for a teenager, and my mom has a tendency of forgetting about me"

"Kas, I'm sure that's not true"

"Dont tell anyone this, i haven't even told Sam and Frankie, but on Christmas she didn't show up because she was watching her boyfriend play"

"I'm sure it was a mistake"

"Well she did say she got her days mixed up, but she has a thing to get caught up in her relationships, if she hadn't been with Travis she wouldn't have made that mistake, she tends to prioritize her boyfriends" I say resting my head on his shoulder

"Kas, it was a simple mistake, I'm sure she doesn't-"

"When she was with Joe, she went to live with him two months to London without me, in 2016 she was so depressed my dad had to take custody away from her, she also stopped tucking me in because of him and she-"