"What's wrong hun?" Mom asks after I keep looking at myself
I wrap my coverup around me, mom looks gorgeous, I even feel embarrassed to use this swimsuit around her
"I'm changing" I sigh
"Why? What's wrong with that one? You look gorgeous!"
"I just don't feel comfortable, I don't like how it fits"
"Sweetie you look great!"
"No, it's a little tighter than it used to be!"
"Hun, it looks the same to me, you look gorgeous "
"No, you don't understand mom!" I say holding back tears
Mom sighs, knowing what i mean
"No i understand sweetie, I wish I didn't, but I do"
"Can we do something else?" I say finally letting my tears run as mom hugs me
"Of course baby, we can do whatever you want okay?"
"I'm sorry, I know you wanted to go out"
"No hun it's okay, whatever you want to do is fine with me, as long as we spend some time together"
"Thank you" I cry "I'm sorry mom, I really don't want to feel like this"
"Hun, I understand, it's not something you choose to do"
"I had never felt this way before" I cry still hugging mom "just seeing myself in something that's the tiniest bit tighter made me feel so ugly, I promise I don't want to feel like this"
"It's okay baby, I'll help you okay?"
"I've always been confident in my own body mom, why do I all of a sudden feel like this?"
I feel fat, I know I'm not, all my doctors have always told me I'm slightly underweight, but I do
"I don't know hun, but everything will be okay" she says kissing my forehead "how about instead we watch a movie and paint some of those canvases Travis brought you? Does that sound like a better plan?"
"Yeah" I say as I try to calm my crying down
"Alright, I'm going to go change okay? I'll give you a minute"
"Thank you"
I go into my closet and pick the baggiest shirt I own, I usually wear these with shorts but I don't feel pretty enough to wear shorts so instead I pick out some sweatpants
I don't care that it's like 90 degrees out.
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I go back into my bedroom and change out of the swimsuit and into some leggings and a sports bra.
"What happened to you swimsuit? You looked gorgeous" Travis smirks coming over to kiss me
"We changed our minds, Kas wasn't feeling very well"
"Is she okay?"
"I don't know, I'm a little worried about her, I have to keep an eye on her"
"If you need me to do anything, I'm here for both of you" he says pecking my lips and I can't help but smile
"Thank you babe" I say resting my head on his shoulder "im sleeping with her tonight okay? I'm really worried"
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You Drew Stars Around my Scars - Taylor Swifts Daughter
FanfictionTaylor swift never imagined she'd be a teen mom right when her career was taking off. A few years ago she would've even said she didn't even want kids, but now her daughter's 15 and Taylor just got out of a long term relationship and both their liv...
