An Unexpected Love

Special Chapter- [1] Soyun

ULTIMATE FLASHBACK

-•-SOYUN-•-

**>>10 years ago<<**

I was 5 year old. I have 2 siblings. And I'm the maknae (youngest).

I'm here in the playground. Alone. Because no one want to be my friend.

I just swing. Swing and swing. Oh! By the way. We are living here at States because of family business.

I just continued here my studies. Because when we left Seoul, I'm in the middle of the school.

"Sooooyun!! Let's eat!" My mom scream. I just run towards to our house and entered.

I sited in our dining table and eat quietly. I'm always like that. Since, my Mom and Dad didn't pay any attention to me even if I'm the youngest I'm always in a side. Eating quietly. Reading my books quietly. Answering my assignments alone without any help from my sister and parents.

I thought in many times to suicide. You know why? Because my Mom and Dad didn't gave any attention to me. If there's a problem, they always blaming at me even if isn't me.

And I'm just like a NOT A MEMBER OF THE FAMILY.

Because.. My two sister doesn't treat me well. They treated me like I'm a animal. You know how it feels? It hurts me soooo much.

Sometimes.. I thought I'm just Adopted. Because I doesn't feel the love and care from my family.

In our class. I got a Top 1.. I'm so happy so my Mom and Dad can see me and be proud to me.

But I assume too much. I expect too much.

After I ate. I went to my room and locked my room. I sit on the edge of my bed and hung it up. I took my diary. The only thing can understand me. And the only Person can understand me is God.

I started to write.

11/23/05 (November 23 2005)

Dear Diary.

Here it goes again. I'm a lonely person again. Why do I existed in this world if my family didn't gave their attention or make me feel their love and care to me? I know I'm too young for these experience. But.. Haish!

Okay bye now diary!! I'm gonna cry!

Love,

Yuyun.

And I close my diary notebook and put it under my bed so no one can see or take it from me.

Yuyun. That's my nickname. I made it to myself... Because.. I don't know.. Maybe I'm just too bored?

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**>>>After a week<<**

Week passed. But nothing changes. I hate my life. Why do I exist? If anyone around me wasn't love me? Nor care for me?

It make me go insane. I better like to live in my Aunt's house rather than my family.

'Cause in my Aunt's house. They always take care of me. Raein Unnie is very kind to me.

Why'd you think I'm too mature? Yes. I'm truly mature. Because no one take care of me so I have no choice is to take care of myself.

I'm just siting in dining table. Daze. When Mom sited next to me. "Soyun.." She held my hand.

"Mom.." I look at her. And she looks sad.

"I'm sorry baby.." And she hug me. This hug. This is the first time of my entire life that she hug me. I'm so damn happy. Happy. Happy like I won in a lottery.