The Mistake | Colby Brock

Chapter Forty-Nine-Dark Thoughts

Colbys pov
  Cassie continues to go through the list, going in depth about every city before the door opens loudly, making everyone jump a little. "WHATS UP MH FELLOW ASS EATERS? We brought-" Corey burst into laughter when he saw that Cassie and Reggie were looking at him like he was a crazy person. "Oh dude! That's why Sam was waving for me to quiet?" He laughed leaning down. I laughed with him and Sam put his head in his hands. "Whatever you do don't let Jake-" I was cut off by another slam at the door and loud footsteps coming from the door way. "Too late," Cassie chuckled standing up to go look, she died of laughter just from a second of looking over at Jake. Corey looked behind him and started laughing even more at Jake. Once he turned the corner we saw that he was waddling in a giant dinosaur costume, yes, THAT t-rex one. The whole room filled with laughter and Jake stood quiet for a second. "Ya know if i knew we were gonna have company i would've changed!" He yelled in a laugh waddling over to us. "No you wouldn't brother," Sam said shaking his head. I poked his gut without him looking making him jump back into a moan. Me and Corey started laughing like there was no tomorrow and Sam just shook his head chuckling. I cover my face with my hands and shake my head. "What the fuck is wrong with us," i said more than asked as Jake started to take the costume off. "Well that was gonna be my new video but Tara cancelled on me last minute so i thought i'd show my favorite buddy's my fit." Jake said proudly as he kicked the costume off to the side. "What's was Tara going to-" "Don't ask questions." Jake said quickly before i could finish making me chuckle before i realized Cassie and Reggie where just waiting for us to finish. "Anyways! Um, Cassie, Reg, you guys can show them what you showed us. Catch them up a bit." I said twisting my helix piercing and stopped when i noticed my action. Force of habit. "You don't wanna look again? Just to really take it in?" Cassie asked pulling up the page slowly. I furrowed my brows for a second before shaking my head. "No i'm good i think i got it down so far, just tell them what you told us so far. I have to shower anyways so it won't be a problem." Corey chuckled at me before snapping his mouth shut. "Oh thank god, sorry to be all rude Colby but you really needed a shower." Corey covered his mouth masking his laugh and Sam chuckled. I walk away rolling my eyes, i couldn't argue though, it just felt like they didn't get it. Well everyone but Sam. "You guys are dead men walking." I yelled walking up the stairs. "Yeah sure, whatever makes you happy." Jake yelled back laughing, i roll my eyes and shut my door, locking it behind me. I run my hand through my hair a few times before fishing my phone out of my pocket. Something in me wishes she would text me, that she could just call and tell me she's okay and i can just hear her voice. But that's not realistic, and i didn't know if i'd ever hear her again and she didn't even have a phone. I pull up the photos app on my phone and go straight to my favorites. I gaze upon all of the photos with my friends before landing on some of my specific favorites. I tap on the photo, enlarging it to see me and Jordan curled up together on her bed. I remember that day very vividly, it was a couple of days after her chains were taken off. I cringe at the thought of her all chained up. What the fuck were we thinking? We tortured her. I shake my head and look back at the photo. Devyn took it when she went to go check up on Jordan and saw that instead. I'm not surprised she took the photo, i am happy she did though. It gave me a happy feeling, something i haven't felt in someone else in a long time. I wasn't good at liking people or even loving people. I would always hurt them or scare them away and i never understood what i did wrong. But Jordan was never scared of me, yeah she left but she told us and Elliot where she was going. She never officially, left us. When we had to hand over Elliot to the A.P.P to find a permanent home he told us she never meant to hurt any of us. That's not what she intended, she actually felt like leaving would be best for all of us. I turn my phone off and toss it onto my bed before grabbing clothes for after my shower. I gaze at myself in the mirror and saw tears leaving my eyes, staining my cheeks. I didn't even feel myself crying, so why was i? Why did i feel so strongly over Jordan where i felt the need to have her with me at all times? My mind was going a hundred miles a minute as i hopped in the shower. The steamy water washing away my dark thoughts.