03.26.21
1:15 am
I think this is it. I think this is the moment I've been waiting for. I think that this is the time I've needed in order to really put my feelings in order. I've been allowing my emotions to consume me in all the wrong ways.
I'm finally starting move on from E. I almost kind of resent him right now. I'm almost kind of upset with him. Which is insane, but it's what I need. This is what I need for myself. I can no longer take others feelings into consideration. E is strictly just my friend.
And I'm actually really good with that. I haven't thought about him as much as I usually do and I'm hoping this is some progress. I do feel bad though because for my 21st bday E's mom wants to go on a mini vacay with me and him.
But now I don't think that's a good idea. I think the best thing is for us to not do things like that. For me to have my space and keep him just as a friend. I'm happy with this decision.
Praying to God I stick to this plan!
YOU ARE READING
trying to feel better
Romancethese are all true thoughts and feelings. they belong to me and I've decided to share them with you. in hopes that i will one day feel better. most of these will be about a boy. and the rest will be about me. please be kind.
