11.16.20
10:32 pm
In an hour and a half E turns 20. I love him so much it's insane. It scares me thinking about how much my feelings grow for him and there's like no valid reason either.
like the feelings I have for him are just so profound and it's like crazy. a few days ago I told him I loved him and I told him that although he says it back, he just doesn't doesn't mean it in the way I do. he looked at me and told me he loves me with all his heart and I'm the best women he knows.
this is why I am always pulled back in when I try to run. the feeling of saying those three words to each other. the feeling of knowing that some part of him has to feel the same way because you just don't act like that with a friend.
or maybe he does and I'm just a insane for thinking that I'm different. or that he treats me different.
tomorrow I want to send him a message telling him that I love him forever. because I do. I think I'll always love him even if our paths don't cross.
I love you today, tomorrow and forever E.
YOU ARE READING
trying to feel better
Romancethese are all true thoughts and feelings. they belong to me and I've decided to share them with you. in hopes that i will one day feel better. most of these will be about a boy. and the rest will be about me. please be kind.
