09.01.21
10:11 am
I'm finally 21!
It's exciting, but also not really. I guess it's just now I get to do all the things I've already done legally. I've already had that party faze in my life when I was 18 and 19 years old. I already feel old and I kind of don't want to reenter that part of my life again.
The day was spent mostly with me by myself. It was great. I went out to dinner with my parents and sister. E and his mom also came along. It was great. I love them so much and being around people I love on my birthday made me feel so complete.
Me and E are actually in a good place right now. Ever since we had sex we agreed to control ourselves and we have. But we also haven't been left alone yet, so I guess when that happens we'll see how controlled we really are.
I kind of want to keep what he and I have. I don't mind being friends with benefits, but I'm also not going to chase after him. I'm not going to be begging him for the attention or for that stuff. I will say though yesterday I told him I want to have sex again.
I don't know what will happen with us, but it's like I've said before. As long as I have him in my life and by my side I'll be fine. He's my best friend till the very end and I love his whole life.
YOU ARE READING
trying to feel better
言情these are all true thoughts and feelings. they belong to me and I've decided to share them with you. in hopes that i will one day feel better. most of these will be about a boy. and the rest will be about me. please be kind.
