Riley's POV
Yes, I am crying. I was so afraid he would be mad at me because of Elaine.
"Do you still love Elaine? I am sorry. I didn't mean it. I tried not to. I know this is me being a shit, but... I am jealous of her. Please forget her."
I think my heart will explode if I won't tell him this. I like him so much that it hurts so bad.
When he ignored her earlier, I somehow felt relieved. Perhaps I have a chance too...
But...
"Elaine is just my ex-girlfriend, and you are just a friend to me. I like talking to you, but it's not like something that will end us up together. I am sorry, Riley. I am not closing doors, but...how can I say this? I mean..."
Fuck! This hurts.
"Just say it. Go ahead. You don't like me. You don't have to feel sorry about it. I know so well that it's impossible. Forget about what I have said. I think I am just feeling sick today. I don't know what I am blabbing." I forced a laugh. This is embarrassing. I should have held it in. So this is the feeling of being turned down. I'll be careful rejecting from now on. You have no idea how I want the ground to swallow me right now. This is not cool. This is not me.
"Do you want me to ask someone to send you home? I am worried about you. Don't go to class today. You are not well."
Stop being nice to me. I was friendzoned. I expected because I thought we clicked. I am so stupid.
"Don't bother. I have an exam today. Excuse me." I faked a smile. I don't think I can face him the same way again.
This is too much for me to handle. It's the first time I confessed my feelings. I was so wrong.
"Ri, please."
"Rye, please. I am okay. See you later."
I left him inside the clinic.
It's still Elaine.
I should have known my place.
My confidence dropped.
I went to our classroom and saw my friends talking. It can't be obvious that I was rejected.
"Who wants to party tonight?"
"Damn, Riley! It is still Thurday. We have class. But we can do it tomorrow! Party time." Maru replied.
"You have to bring handsome guys, okay?" I told him.
"So, should we invite Aki and Rye?" Maru teased.
"It's no fun! Did you see them just sitting at the party? We can invite other guys!" I chuckled.
"Woah! Spill it! What happened?" He turned serious now. Of course, he will notice it.
I ignored his question. "Guys, let's go clubbing tomorrow. Our newest club is now open! All drinks are on me." I announced.
They screamed with excitement.
I am not someone who will cry over it. I know he is handsome as hell, but I am Riley, known to be gorgeous. If he doesn't like me, then fuck himself!
But deep inside me, I still wanted him.
Rye, like me, please. I don't care if your love for me is not greater than your love for her. At least give me a chance. I would love you better. It would be best if you had given me a chance.
It was nighttime when Rye texted me if I had eaten already. I am itching to reply right away. I don't want him to wait. But I don't want to act like I am flirting again. He already drew a line.
I tried to ignore him and posted a photo on my IG account. It was taken a week ago, but I want to post it tonight and act like I am going out. At least he knows that I am online, but I am not excited with his message. I don't want to look like I a pathetic one.
