The stories continue//COTC scenarios

I'm not used to affetcion... (Craigson)

9/5/22
Song at the top is what inspired me to write this. Special thanks to Lunaticwithpigtails on the COTC for coming up with the title. It was a pain in the ass trying to come up with it.

Jason's POV:I sat peacefully with Craig, if someone was walking past us they'd think we were just bros hanging out. But they'd be wrong, me and Craig were in a real relationship. It had been like this for a month and it had been nice, like him...I blinked and suddenly we could call each other ours.

But, there's a problem I hate so much. I love Craig with all my heart can offer, but I feel like I'm loving him wrong...If that makes sense. My dad and step mom never bothered to pay attention to me to show me love so I don't know how to be in this relationship but I jumped in one impulsively cause I love Craig so much. The daily I love you's never failed to warm my heart but one time Craig called me pretty and I said he's pretty too. But then I remembered how I've never seen a partner compliant the other after the other did so I was scared I did something wrong. One time he was goofing off with me he said, "Party rockets in the house tonight!" As a joke, but I didn't pick up the joke and I corrected him, he just went quiet. I really ruined it...

Dinner came and me and Craig walked home. I walked into my unsurprisingly empty house and ate dinner in my room, I thought of all the dates this month and my heart ached. My appetite was lost mid swallowing, Craig is dating someone who doesn't even know how to date...My dad and step mom didn't bother to talk to me about this, maybe there's something wrong with me...I felt like something was wrong with me and I was treating Craig badly...

I love him but sometimes I feel like I'm loving him wrong. I'd do anything for Craig and I just hopes he'd do the same. I can't break his heart and make Kelsey and Jp hate me, it took so long for them to trust me so they'd let me and Craig date I won't throw that away. I finished eating and put my plate in the sink, love is such a rose. It's so beautiful and puts all these nice thoughts in your head, but sometimes it hurts...

The next day

I went over to Craig's house for the afternoon and we were having a movie night. We were holding hands for the whole movie, honestly deep down I felt like I was doing something right. Mrs.Williams smiled at us a few times while walking by, I was so thankful Craig's parents were okay with us dating. My step mom and dad still don't know a thing about me and Craig. The movie ended and Craig went up to his room to get another movie, leaving me all alone. I reached for my phone and my Lock Screen was me and Craig together.

Then, it hit me. The sadness stabbed me like thorns on a rose, Craig looks so happy...He doesn't know how I feel and I feel so selfish for dating him knowing damn well I don't know how to love since I spent years without it. Why am I so stupid? Why didn't I think this  through? Why-

"Jason, are you crying?".

I jumped at the voice from behind me, I turned and saw it was Mrs.Williams. I realized tears were running down my face, Craig better not be here to see me like this right now. I quickly wiped them away and impulsively shook my head as a no, dang it Jason no one likes a liar. "Jason, is something going on?"Mrs.Williams asked then gestured that we could talk in private in this kitchen. I shook my head as a no and I went into the kitchen alone with her. "Mrs.Williams, do you think something's wrong with me? When I told you me and Craig were dating..."I asked sitting down.

"Of course not, did someone say something?"She replied showing more concern "No one said anything, it's just...I feel like I'm being a bad boyfriend just for dating your son..."I said. When I told her everything it felt like a weight left my shoulders when I told her how I was feeling, guess it was cause I knew she wouldn't judge me. A look of sympathy crossed her face and she got closer to me, "Jason, you are not a bad boyfriend, it's not your fault for feeling like this. You've been by his side and held his hand when he needed it most, I've never seen him so happy with someone before"Mrs.Williams spoke.

I let her keep talking and I felt so much better, I thought this family was a family that treated me better than my own and now this was a family Tony and Boris joked about becoming my in laws. "Jason, I found our next movie!"Craig shouted running down the stairs, I got up from the chair and told Craig I was gonna be right there. Before walking back to the living room I looked back at Mrs.Williams, "Thank you, Mrs.Williams..."I spoke and she nodded in response. I walked back to the living room and sat next to Craig, feeling like an awesome boyfriend.