I should be your Beta, not your Mate

3 - Live or die?

Shocked, the head of my father flicked to Cassian who stood frozen in his spot and didn't move at all. The Alpha let go of my arms and also eyed his son.

»You were the one who disfigured my son like that? With what reason?! That you couldn't accept his sexuality?! That's no reasonable reason to disfigure a Beta, your Beta! Every other wolf will look down on him now and can treat him how they want! They could kill him because they have the permission with those scars! Do you even know what a traitor mark from an Alpha means?! Kyran is now a traitor! Others will think he betrayed you and you needed to punish him with a punishment worthy of death! Damn it, Cassian!«

With every word Cassian changed his focus between me, my father, and his father and with every sight at me his eyes got filled with more panic and despair.

»I... I can't remember ever doing that to Kyran,« he croaked, stuttering and looked at me with pleading eyes.

»So, you want to tell me that your father, one of the kindest and righteous Alphas I know, did that to my son?! How can you be so disrespectful and say that when he is in the same room as you?!«

Threatening, the eyes of my father lit up in a golden color while his nails slowly turned into claws and his teeth turned to fangs.

I had never seen my father furious like that.

Normally, he was quiet and kept a cool head which made him a perfect advisor and Beta. But he was merciless to his enemies.

However, right now his fury made me anxious. Slowly, I walked over to him and placed my hand on his shoulder.

»Calm down, Dad.«

Growling and with furrowed eyebrows he looked me in the face and seemed like he doubted my own calmness. But I only showed that calmness from outside. Because inside myself raged a storm that destroyed everything in its path.

»If I weren't so careless you would never have seen those scars. These are my scars, my shame, and my responsibility to live with them. Everything has a reason, even the reason why Cassian marked me as a traitor. It is what it is. And now it seems like I'm no longer the Beta but involuntarily the Luna. So please, calm down.«

His animalistic side slowly faded before he grasped my shoulders and shook my body, hard.

»Kyran, that is a traitor mark from your Alpha! Something like that will stay your whole life. Do you know what danger you were in when you went to the pack in Canada? They could have killed you without hesitation and we could have done nothing to stop it! Your Alpha can kill you now!«

I lifted the corners of my mouth and looked at my father's face and nodded. Immediately, he let go of me and every color drained from his face.

»You wanted that to happen,« my father breathed and shook his head in shock. But his statement wasn't the truth.

»No.«

Sternly I squeezed my lips together and looked through the round.

»I never wanted to show the Canadian pack my scars, but it happened by mistake. The Alpha let me explain and showed me tolerance because he also has a mark like this. His own father did that to him out of pure egoism. I didn't plan to die there, if not I wouldn't have gone to Canada in the first place. I would have died a miserable death here if I had wanted to die. And if I could, I would have stayed there and would have never returned. Because I knew if someone saw this mark in this pack here, I couldn't say anything and would be killed in an instant! No, not just because of that, I just didn't want to return. I didn't want to come back because I hate it here, this whole life here. But I know my responsibilities and returned for them.«