I should be your Beta, not your Mate

54 - Arrived

»Look, look, look,« I squeaked excitedly and stuck my head out of the window.

Warm wind blew the smell of water into my face and put a broad smile on my face.

»I can already see the water!«

With sparkling eyes I looked at Cas who only laughed heartily about my behavior. Grinning, I stared at the glittering water again.

Broadly grinning, I let myself fall back into my seat and put my legs on Cas' lap while I leaned my back against the door and let the wind play with my hair by leaning my head slightly out of the window.

Since we left Germany, my excitement was big so I mostly had forgotten my fear of small spaces. I was completely immersed in my euphoria.

Cassian followed the road some more and now we drove along the water.

To my misery the water was on his side so I couldn't stick my head like a dog out of the window.

But I still liked the sight I now had. Not the water. Cas. His upper body was covered by a loose dark blue t-shirt and his legs in short shorts. The sunglasses he had just worn on his nose were now on his head and a happy smile covered his lips.

He was happy, I could see that with one look.

»You're staring,« he mumbled amused but didn't take his eyes from the road and he didn't show at all that he didn't like my staring.

So, I could only answer in one possible way. »I'm allowed to do it,« I answered confidently.

»Mhm, but only if you kiss me,« he said and made me chuckle. Greedy idiot.

»Concentrate on the road. If not, we will have an accident and I can't do my job later.«

Amused he snorted. Clearly, I could hear his arrogance. As if I would ever create an accident.

»Above that, you can't even stop me from staring at you. Because you are the one driving, my love.«

Now, bell-like laughter filled the Van and made my heartbeat go quicker while a firework exploded in my belly.

Would those feelings ever disappear? Please, no. I loved those feelings too much for that.

And I was more than happy to have the honor of feeling them everyday.

From the morning when I woke up next to him until the evening when we fell asleep together. Every minute was filled with pure happiness.

Were those the so-called pink glasses of blind love?

But I didn't really care because maybe it was soon. Maybe we could fulfill our bond soon. Only the imagination how he-

»What are you thinking about?« he asked and jerked me out of my thoughts.

Fuck, I cursed inside.

He seriously had caught me thinking about watching him when he was still asleep in the morning and then acted like I was sleeping when he woke up.

Caught me thinking about our love and how I imagined him burying me beneath him and filling me up.

»Just about something I think about without a break,« I answered composedly, though I was screaming inside. You hormone-controlled idiot!

But I could avoid answering him because it was too embarrassing to speak out loud what I just thought about – or more the moments I stalked him – and he could think for himself tat I thought about what he did to me.

Satisfied he hummed and then took the way on a gravel road that was bumpy, which made me lift my head so I wouldn't hit it against the open window.

»Where are you driving to?«