Can't Let You Go

twenty-two:

"WHAT?! Anong sinasabi mo d'yan, Tristan? Nahihibang ka na ba talaga?!" Hindi makapaniwalang singhal ko sa kanya but he did not waver even for a second. He's serious. Seryoso s'ya sa sinabi n'ya at kita ko ang determinasyon sa mga mata n'ya para mapapayag ako, "Tristan, you of all people know na hindi biro ang kasal. It is a very serious matter. Kaya hindi mo pwedeng basta na lang ilatag 'yun sa harap ko." I weighed his emotion pero hindi ko 'yun nakitaan nang anumang pagbabago. Napabuntong-hininga ako, he is very much determined to push this at wala akong magagawa kung hindi gamitin ang isang bagay na alam kong ayaw n'yang pag-usapan pero maaring makapagpabago ng isip n'ya, "Tristan, 'wag mo tayong igaya sa parents mo. Let's not enter a loveless marriage."

His composure broke a little at bahagya s'yang napayuko bago n'ya ako hinarap at kinausap, "It will not be a loveless marriage, I love you." He sincerely stated, "It will not be like theirs, hindi nila mahal ang isa't isa, pero ako mahal kita. At alam ko, naniniwala ako, na mahal mo pa ako, pilit mo lang iyong ibinaon sa puso mo kaya hindi mo 'yun maramdaman sa ngayon. But I'll revive that feeling, I'll show you."

I shook my head, "It may not be a loveless marriage, pero, Tristan, hindi pa tayo handa. 'Pag pumasok ta'yo dun hindi na tayo makakabalik."

"Do you think I still plan back out of this relationship? Because I'm telling you right now, I don't." He firmly stated.

"But you said..." I faltered and even before I can continue what I was about to say he already cut me off.

"Yes, I did. But do you think I will let this relationship fail? I won't. I'll make it work and you won't have to worry about leaving me anymore."

I stayed silent. I don't know what to say anymore to change his mind. "I'm not yet ready, Tristan." I weakly said.

"I know. But it doesn't matter, walang pinagkaiba kung handa ka o hindi. It'll still be the same. You'll still marry me in the end. Mahal kita, Jer, at gagawin ko ang lahat mabuhay lang ulit ang pagmamahal mo sa akin." 

Wala akong nagawa kung hindi ang yumuko na lang at hayaan s'ya sa desisyon n'ya, because at this moment I felt that no matter what I say, no matter how hard I try to say it, my opinion won't matter anyway. His decision is final and there's nothing in this world that can change his mind. 

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limalec: Sorry maiksi na naman, kakagaling ko lang kasi sa interview para sa internship ko. Susundan ko  'to, promise, just give me time para marecharge ko yung utak ko. May nagsabi na sana comment na lang 'yung hinihingi ko so to compromise, 100 votes na lang tayo tapos 50 comments.