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Fourty-seven

My eyes wander around the room. People are drinking, talking, dancing. Why did I agree to this? The drink in my hand is cold. Luke put some ice in my Coke with Wodka. I don't really want to drink it, so I'm waiting for the ice cubes to melt. I'm probably just going to give it to someone or pour it away. The red cup is pretty boring. Luke and Josh left me standing here on my own. I should be sitting at home with my books scattered across my bed. Finals are starting in one and a half months. Niall and that girl, her name's Lucy, are already together for three weeks, so Niall and I didn't talk for three weeks straight. We never took this long to be back to normal. I don't know, if I still trust Niall. When he asks, if I accept his apology, I'll probably say 'yes'.

"Hey, Alex", someone says.

I look up from my drink. Lou smiles at me. He doesn't seem like he drank. I smile at him quickly, pulling my hoodie sleeves down. The drink in my hands finds a place on a table nearby. My back still lays against the wall.

"What's wrong?", Lou asks, pretty worried about me.

I shrug. He doesn't have to know about my problems. We barely know each other. I look back down at my feet again.

"Alex, what's up? I know when someone's not okay", he tells me, pulling me by my arm to come with him.

I follow him to a room somewhere. It's a bedroom but I really don't know who this house belongs to. Lou stares at me, while I discuss, whether I should tell him or not.

"You should tell me, Alex. This party is my best friends birthday party and I don't want to have a party-pooper here", Lou smiles friendly, hitting me in the shoulder lightly.

"It's not that important. Just some boy problems, not much. I just want to go home and learn for school", I say, quietly.

"Which boy? Is it Niall? I know you guys aren't together. He was at one of my parties with a girl named Lucy. She was such a bitch towards Elena. I threw them out of my place. Are they actually together?", he asks pretty shocked.

"Yeah, they are together. And yes, Niall and I never were a couple. We faked it, so Hardin wouldn't touch me anymore."

"But I really thought you were cute together."

"Thanks."

"We should really get you two back together. Why are you actually that mad? I don't quite understand", Lou tells me honestly.

I sit down on the bed, getting out my phone. I texted everything to Sam one day. Maybe Lou will understand it when he reads it. I don't want to explain the whole "Christina and Liam"-Story. It's just too much for now. Lou needs a few minutes to read it. My body shakes. My anxiety got worse since Niall and Lucy are a thing. I just don't have anyone to relie on exept Josh and my brother. The only positive thing is that I'm back to a good weight. My depression is better but still not perfect due to the Niall thing.

"I understand", Lou mumbles.

I shrug, taking my phone. It isn't that easy. Niall and I ignore each other, Lucy sometimes pushes me in the hallway. I don't feel attacked by them. They just slowly hurt me mentally but I have that under control.

"I don't understand what Niall likes about those girls. They are such bitches and don't even want anything serious from him. I need to talk to him. We know each other for 7 years and he doesn't tell me about that stuff. I just don't believe him", he tells me.

"Yeah. The text doesn't really tell everything...", I mumble.

The time we had sex. I didn't put it in the message to Sam because I thought it was too private but Lou seems so trustworthy... Maybe because he's so much older that I am. He lays his big hand on my shoulder.