Shadowhunter Imagines and Prefences

Imagine- Happier (Alec)

Requested by NamiCookiex3

Alec's Pov
It burned. You know that burning feeling in your chest. That's what I have. I watch her hug against his chest. There's the burning feeling again.

Walking down 29th and Park
I saw you in another's arms
Only a month we've been apart
You look happier

I had my chance. I fucked it up. I let her get away because of my mistake. I cheated on someone who could have been my love forever. Now, I watch her laugh and smile with someone else who should be me.

Saw you walk inside a bar
He said something to make you laugh
I saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours
Yeah, you look happier, you do

I keep trying to move on from her. Forget about our relationship and find someone knew. But I see her everywhere with him. I can't get away.

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody love you like I do
Promise that I will not take it personal, baby
If you're moving on with someone new

She looks at me. We make eye contact. Can she not see the pain on my face? Can she not notice how much I want her back? She takes him to all the places we used to go together, even that one coffee shop she didn't know about until I showed her on our second date.

'Cause baby you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'll feel it too
And until then I'll smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you

I told her that I cheated because I didn't like how she was always on missions or hanging out with Jace. Man, did I fuck up. Her new boyfriend treats her right, I should have done that.

Sat on the corner of the room
Everything's reminding me of you
Nursing an empty bottle and telling myself you're happier
Aren't you?

I stare at her until we make eye contact again. It's my fault. I can't run from it. I'm addicted to her.

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody need you like I do
I know that there's others that deserve you
But my darling, I am still in love with you

She's happier. Right? Or can I see that fake smile on her face. I've known her longer and can tell when she's uncomfortable. But this is her decision, not mine. I want to run over there and scream "I love you" but I can't because she loves him.

But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
I know I was happier with you

She may be unhappy. I will never know. She may look happy, but be sad or feel abused. I have tried to call and message her, but no answer. I wonder if he makes sure she doesn't answer. I will never know.

Baby, you look happier, you do
I knew one day you'd fall for someone new
But if breaks your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you

But. She looks happier with him then she was with me. I messed up. I can't do anything now except for beg for forgiveness. I will never know what's going on her life. And that's all my fault. I'll have to live with that forever.