Harry
I was trying to focus on the movie, but my mind was still thinking about yesterday night. Yes, I meant it... I still don't love myself.
And Louis is my only flicker of hope right now.
He kinda always was, but he didn't know it. He probably didn't know I exist so... Nobody knew I existed.
I always felt like a ghost. Louis brought me into the light. But I don't like it that much. I mean, yeah, I love him, but I prefered to be the quiet, innocent, ghost and freak Harold.
"Hey baby, you thinking about something?" Lou smiled.
"Huh? No, m not." I smiled back.
I shouldn't lie to him. He is always kind with me and he would do everything just to see me smile.
I don't deserve him.
I don't deserve his cheeky smile, I don't deserve his ocean blue eyes, I don't deserve his tummy, I don't deserve his hair, I don't deserve his little nose. I don't deserve him. I don't deserve Louis Tomlinson.
"Come here..." he put me closer, so he could wrap his tiny hands around me. Why is he so tiny? "Everything's okay?"
"Yeah..." I rest my head on his shoulder.
"Okay than." he kissed my forehead. "But you can talk to me. About everything."
"Sure."
***
"Just a minute, okay? I'll be right back."
I ran into the bathroom they had downstairs, trying to cool down my face. I was really upset and I don't know why. Maybe because of my thoughts?
When I came back, they had prepared the third part of Captain America. Yes, I love this movie, but I don't feel like watching it now.
I started to feel hungry, my tummy making weird noises.
"You hungry?" Phoebe asked.
"What? No, I'm not."
"You have to be. I heard the noises. We all should eat something. Guys! We are having a break! Come eat something!"
"I am really not, but thanks."
"What is going on?" Lou asked.
"He is telling me he's not hungry. But I heard his tummy."
"Hazza..."
"Lou I promise, I'm not hungry."
"I don't care if you are or if you are not. We ALL are gonna eat something, at least something small."
"Fine."
"You know I love you."
"And we love you too!"
But I don't love myself.
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A.N.
You deserve to eat, honey. You deserve to be happy and you deserve to be loved. And I love you x
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Boy_friends /larry stylinson AU/
Fanfiction/ Larry ff in English / Forward sorry for mistakes ♡ From strangers to friends, from friends to boyfriends. ☆If it all goes wrong, darling just hold on...☆ ♡ /!TW! (self harm, eating disorder..) / Boys aren't famous / Lgbtq+, bullying etc.
