Arts of Heart (Compilation of OSS)

ART 75

HE LOVES ME BECAUSE OF SYMPATHY

Jiro is my boyfriend and we've been together for 9 months. He's a cold type of person they say but he's different when he's with me.

Naalala ko pa kung paano kami nagkakilala. He was my crush back then when I went near to his table to ask him if p'wede bang maki-join dahil puno ang mga seats. Then, pumayag siya.

We talked and I can say na hindi naman pala siya cold. It's just that he's not just interested on what is happening in his sorroundings.

We became closed starting that day.

Doon nagstart na pagbulungan at ibully ako ng mga babaeng na nagkakagusto sa kaniya. Hanggang sa umuuwi ako ng basa, may pintura, o kaya ay may sugat at pasa sa katawan.

Until one day, nalaman niya ang nangyayari sa akin. I was so schocked when he announced that I am his girlfriend so no one dared to harm me. Nagconfessed din siya noong araw na 'yon sa akin at gano'n din ako kaya kami naging official.

"Stop staring, Shai. Baka mahalikan kita." Agad akong napaiwas at namula dahil doon. Hindi ko man lang namalayan na nakatitig na pala ako sa kaniya.

"Jiro, have I ever cross your mind?" I asked him kaya napatigil siya at tiningnan ako.

"Never. Let's go back to study. May exam ka pa bukas."

Para naman akong nabuhusan ng tubig dahil sa isinagot niya pero pinili ko na lamang na ipagsawalang bahala 'yon.

"Do you like me, Jiro?" I asked him while were watching the sun to set. He's hugging me behind so I can't see his face.

"No. Nagugutom kana ba? Tara na," he said bago ako iniwan.

I want to shout at him and ask him why kaso baka mag-away lamang kami so again, I ignored it.

"Hey Ji, do you want me?" Nakangiting sinalubong niya naman ang mata ko bago ginulo ang aking buhok.

"No. Halika na ihahatid na kita sa inyo." Hanggang sa makauwi kami ay hindi ko siya kinausap. Maybe he's not aware that he's hurting me.

Today is our 10 monthsary. I am so happy because he spent his whole day with me.

"Would you cry if I left?" He kissed my forehead and hugged me tight.

"Not really," he replied.

I want to cry and blame him for hurting me but I remained quiet. Ayokong sirain ang mahalagang araw na ito.

"Ji, are you willing to do anything for me?" Tanong ko sa kaniya habang busy siya sa pagluluto while I am here busy staring at him. Imagining him as my husband.

"I'm not. Come here taste this. I'm sure magugustuhan mo 'to," he said but I left him there.

His words are very opposite to his action. Napakasweet niya but everytime na tatanungin ko siya ay taliwas ang nagiging sagot niya and I hate it. Nasasaktan lamang ako.

"What will you choose, me or your life?" Hinawakan niya naman ang kamay ko at pinagsiklop 'yon.

"Ofcourse, my life." When he said that, my tears started to fall. Hindi ko na kaya.

Maybe tama sila, naawa lang talaga siya sa akin noon dahil binubully ako that's why napilitin siyang makipagrelasyon sa akin.

Tinanggal ko ang kamay niya sa akin dahilan para mangunot ang kaniyang noo.

"Let's end this. I am breaking up with you." After I said that ay tumakbo ako palayo sa kaniya habang umiiyak. Narinig ko pa ang pagtawag niya sa akin.

I love him so much but I don't want him to stay because of sympathy.

Tahimik akong naglalakad sa hallway ng may namamagang mata nang may lalaking nagbigay sa akin ng bulaklak. I was about to ask him pero iniwan niya ako. Hanggang naging sunod-sunod na.

And there he is, standing while holding a boquet of flowers and microphone in his hands. Muli na namang nagsipatakan ang mga luha ko.

Halos lahat ng mga mata ay sa amin nakatuon. I can't imagine that he will do this for me.

"The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.

The reason why I don't want you is because I need you.

The reason why I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.

The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I will do everything for you."

He wiped my tears that are keep on falling from my eyes. He held my hand and kissed my forehead.

"The reason why I choose my life is because you are my life. Happy Anniversary, Love. Please comeback to me. My heart is now dying. I love you."

Hearing those words from him melted my heart. Damn this cold man and his surprises.