I'm Fine | Beyond The Scene™

PART 32

Part 32:
2! 3! Hoping For More Good Days

Park Ji Min

I closed my eyes as I feel the silence of the night while I leaned on the railings of the rooftop. No news from Namjoon hyung, Hoseok hyung, and Jin hyung yet. I am still here in this hospital because my parents won't just let me out.

I think they had pull strings with the hospital again just to have me stayed inside and won't be discharged. The doctor must have told them that I am at my worse again, that my mind is unstable again.

"You know if you are going to jump off this building you won't really die, it's only the seventh floor and this is the lowest building here. Besides, you will just fall on a trampoline down there if you jump off this place.
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They placed one below after cases of patients jumping off the rooftop. You better jump at Namsan Tower." someone said as I felt a presence of a person beside me.

"Thanks but no thanks, I am still in the right state of mind so I won't jump off. I am not crazy to kill myself over worthless things. I just wanted to think on when will I be able to get out of this place..."

I responded straightforwardly and blankly while feeling the wind that blows in my face staring ahead of me, on the lights of the city as he chuckled at my response.

"Don't worry Jimin, you will get out of here..." he said as I felt him turned around and walk away from me. So I opened my eyes and looked back to see who it was because he knew my name.

"Wait, how did you know my name?" I shouted as he looked back at me and throw a piece of crumpled paper at me like, I was afraid that it will be blown away by the wind but it didn't.

I immediately caught the paper before it was blown away, which didn't happen since I noticed there was a stone placed in between the crumpled paper. It was a smart thing that he had done.

"Taehyung... Do you know that Namjoon hyung and Jin hyung are looking for you? Do you know that Jin hyung is back?" I tried asking him while trying to figure out his reaction as he just smiled at me.

"I know, I can feel it when someone is looking for me but I don't want to show myself. I just stay within my shadows, but if someone doesn't want to see me I will appear before them. Call me when you need me." he said as he turned back while placing his hand in my pockets.

I really can't understand him sometimes, he comes and goes just like a wind. You won't know what is running in his head as he can hide it both in his blank face and his boxy smile.

I looked at the crumpled paper that he had thrown me earlier as I opened it after throwing away the stone that he placed inside so the paper won't fly off. "He didn't even bother to change his contact number just like everyone else..." I said as I stared at the digits in my hand.

Who would have known that the last person that I expect to see would show himself right in front of me? I took my phone from my pocket and composed a message to Taehyung.

"Welcome back bro... It was nice to see you again..." I said as I looked at the night sky before sending Namjoon hyung, Jin hyung, and Hoseok hyung about the news that I saw Taehyung tonight.

I once looked at the bright lights of the city before I turned back and went inside the hospital again. I saw some of the guards that my father had sent me to make sure that I will not get out of the hospital but I didn't mind them at all.

It's already past eleven in the evening so there won't be many people around. I flopped myself to the bed ready to sleep when someone knocked on my door as I just shouted get in as I am lazy to get up.

"Jimin? Is it true that Taehyung showed up to you this night?" Namjoon hyung said as he entered my room with Jin hyung. Well, I understand why they are always together because they go to the same job at the same shift.

"Yep, he just gave me his contact number but I won't give it to you. Everybody knows the ways of Kim Taehyung. Just wait until he shows up in front of you." I said as I just stayed still in my bed.

"How can he just come and go when we need him the most? That brat, what does really goes on inside his mind that no one can read him except for Yoongi." Jin hyung frustratedly said as he sits on the bed by my side which was formerly occupied by Hoseok and now by no one.

"You do expect that he will show himself that easily to you, do you?" I asked as they both nodded their heads, Namjoon hyung closed the door and sit right next to Jin hyung as I get up on the bed to sit right in front of them.

"Of course, we should find him or he must show himself to us for you to get out of here. We really need his help, Taehyung is the one who can help us the most right now." Namjoon hyung desperately said as he sighed deeply.

"Well, he won't show himself to the both of you either. He might show himself to Hoseok hyung, Yoongi hyung, or Jungkook in this case then." I said as Jin hyung looks so confused with what I said.

"What do you mean?" he asked as I sighed trying to contemplate how will I ever explain to them this simple yet complicated stuff. I was still looking for the right words to say because I don't know how to explain them.

"Listen hyungs, Taetae has this logic that he will just show up to one person when that person doesn't expect to see him. To the person who is not expecting him at all.
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Way back when we first meet each other, remember that Taehyung was the last one who gave his phone number to each one of us right?" I asked as they both nodded their heads remembering the event.

"The more you ask him for his phone number the more that he doesn't want to give it to us. Until such time when we had already given up on it and stop asking him.
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When one by one of us gave up on ask for his number that is when he gave us his number written in a piece of crumpled paper." I started my explanation as they just listened to me.

"Each time when we decided to hang out, thinking that everybody will show up according to plan expecting him to go out with us. He would just eventually stood us up and never show up.
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Taehyung would be undeniably absent even if he knows the initial plan. When I noticed his own logic, I didn't try to take it seriously at first and still expect him to be around." I added as Jin hyung motioned me to continue.

"So when I come to realize his own logic, I decided not to expect him and he will not show up in our outings and getaways. I would think that he would not bother to show up at all again.
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And he would just mysteriously appear right beside me every time I do that. Then I thought that my hunch was right. He had really this twisted mindset that is confusing to understand." I said as Jin hyung suddenly commented.

"What kind of logic is that? Is there even a proper logic and explanation for that?" he asked as I just shrugged my shoulders as I don't really know how would I explain to them the ways of Kim Taehyung.

"Earlier, I told him that Jin hyung is already back and that you both are looking for him. He just responded to me 'I know, I can feel it when someone is looking for me but I don't want to show myself.
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I just stay within my shadows, but if someone doesn't want to see me I will appear before them.' I quote and unquote what he responded to me." I said as Namjoon hyung nodded.

"Makes sense already... Knowing that alien-brained brat, he must really have an own understanding of the things going on around him including his own logic." Namjoon hyung said as Jin hyung looked like he was finally getting the idea.

"So we don't have to think of him for a while for him to show up right? We just have to simply avoid thinking about Kim Taehyung for a while right?" Jin hyung asked as I nodded my head to answer them.

"By the way how did you two got in here? Isn't it already past visiting hours? You two should not be allowed to be in here anymore." I asked them as they both grinned at me.

"We have somehow become friends with nurse Jude he gave us some kind of a pass to see you at times like this. Anyway, we still have work ahead, we will leave you for now.
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Thanks for clearing up the confusion in us Jimin. I finally understand things." Namjoon hyung said as they got up from the bed and waved their hands at me and went out of the room.

They just have to think about it that way and we will definitely be all together again. The seven of us, among us all it are only me, Jungkook, and Yoongi hyung who can understand the thoughts of Taehyung as he is really hard to read.

But I hope that I will be able to spend more good days with them again after Namjoon hyung and Jin hyung had finally got the picture. I went back to lay down on the bed as I drifted off to sleep.