AFFLICTION

29 ~ [Love Means Destruction]

AZEZAL POV

"She left?" I asked Aaron in whisper voice. I had some business calls so I went back to my room not caring for the party which I was least interested anyway. Now I was about to go back to my own house but before going, my eyes searched for her among every other

"Who left?" He asked pouting with a confused face

"Hmm... that girl.. Leera" I uttered lowly. I don't know why do I want to know that or why do I even care

"Leera?" Her name came out from his mouth with a grin. This little guy is worse than me!

"Did she already leave?" I asked him again frustrated this time
"She did but why are you asking?" I ruffled his ignoring his question cause I myself had no answer to that

"Gotta go champ! See you next day. I'll bring chocolates for you" I smiled at him while drifting the topic to something else
"My favourite one" He uttered excitedly
"Okay champ. See you tomorrow" I patted his head

"Azezal, where were you? I was searching for you the whole time. My friends want to meet you" Carla suddenly came and barged in between me and Aaron

"I'm going home" saying that coldly I was about to leave while she caught my hand
"Azezal, it's our engagement for God's sake! How can you leave this early and what will I say to everyone?" She barked
"Whatever shit" I jerked my hand off her and walked past her. I don't care about this bitch or whatever happens. I was meant to attend this engagement party for my father and I did. Fuck other formalities and anything

I droke my car back home and took a relaxing shower. Then I thought about eating something as I didn't even eat anything much at the party but I didn't even had appetite for that so I straightly went to bed.

A deep long sigh left my mouth as I closed my eyes.... Her hazel brown eyes staring back at mine. Her lavender scent... the nevi blue dress that fitted her so well, looked marvellous on her. How I was just about to kiss her in that washroom

I opened my eyes. Fuck what's wrong with me? I wasn't like this days before, not until I met her again. I know that I only despise this fucked up person, she can never make a place in my heart again. Never ever. Not only she is literally no one to me! Love isn't a thing for me. Love destroys, Love means destruction. I never believed in this thing but I was misguided on my way that time when I fell for her but it won't happen again. Not after what I lost because of her. Not after how she played with me

Again... I felt she was somehow disturbed at my engagement. Why? Because she didn't expect it was me who's engagement she unknowing visited or it was that she realized what she lost? The great Azezal Pavano. Every girl desires to be with, every girl throws herself at my feet. Money, fame, looks, muscular body, power... Is there anything that I lack?

No but yes I'm still lacking the satisfaction of seeing her hurt and in pain that I'll impose on her. The regret I'll watch draining out of her face as she will constipate for what she had messed. How she would be begging for my mercy... I can't wait to fulfill my desires

I was an absolute idiot that time to even thing love was actually something and I have been in love with her. Bullshits! The most impractical and nugatory something that I ever did in my life was falling in this shit called love moreover with a person like her and what happened in the end? It only made me venerable at a point I lost the most precious gem in my life... My mother. I was so impotent and lost in my own pain that I couldn't save my mother that day

I knew it entirely wasn't her fault but my fault too that I couldn't handle my feelings and couldn't save my mom. But it was only because of her! She feed me with her lies.. she betrayed me.. she made me venerable... she made me feel so much I never thought I could. Not a man like me could even imagine.