Hey guys. It's me, Unwell Girl. I'm stoned and in the mood to write. Things have been actually looking up lately. I'm in the process of getting my teeth fixed. Besides cavities from years of depression and not caring about my hygiene at all, I've had my front tooth chipped since the day after I turned 16. I get my permanent one the day after my 24th birthday. 8 years of hating my smile. Refusing to smile like pictures, covering my mouth when I laugh because I don't want them to see it. I have a temporary tooth right now and it's honestly so weird to see how much of a difference it makes. Plus, funny thing is, is that whenever I ask someone if they notice something different, they never can guess. When I point it out they tell me oh damn I didn't even know your tooth was chipped. So many years I thought that was the focal point of my face, being so insecure and barely anyone even noticed. It's made me kinda realize that all the stupid things I'm insecure about are kind of ridiculous. I've been feeling my confidence rising. It's honestly nice. I only feel pretty with makeup, but now I don't even feel the need to put it on. I look in the mirror and yeah I still see some flaws, only now I see a beautiful human being. I've been way too hard on myself, harder than anyone should ever be on a person. It's time to stop putting myself down. It's time to show myself the love I've been trying to find in others. Another thing, I've been repairing my relationships with my family that I destroyed back when I was a Classic Borderline. It feels amazing to be able to hang out with my mom and sisters again. I also feel ready to start looking for a job now. Therapy is going really well. Some things I'm not happy with in my life at the moment. I'm figuring it out. I can finally say that I know everything is going to be okay, no matter what, I'll get through it. I always do
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The Girl With A Broken Mind
Random*Adult Content* I'm turning my blog/diary into a book. They are basically diary postings without the dates. They are random postings about whatever I'm feeling that day. Very raw, very detailed about my life. My blog and now this book is to help peo...
