I want to give up on my quest to find love. Its not going to happen. Everyone is happily in a relationship except for me. Why do I keep choosing emotionally unavailable men. I'm not going for just looks, or caring about how big their dick is. I'm trying to actually find someone like me. Someone dorky and who loves to laugh. I've met this really great guy. I've been myself fully in front of him. I've let out my crazy and my goofiness fully instead of hiding the parts of myself I tend to think people wouldn't like. He's so far accepted me for who I am. But he told me he doesn't know if he wants a relationship out of this. I'm already investing my feelings. We've talked everyday for the past month. We've been hanging out for two weeks. He satisfies me in more ways than one. I'm just hurt because now I don't know if I'm wasting my time trying to make a relationship out of this with a man who doesn't know what he wants. He's taking it slow and I respect that. I just wanted to know how long "slow" is going to take. It could mean forever. He said he's not the "girlfriend type". I want to be his girlfriend so bad. We connect in a way my ex fiance and I connected. Such chemistry. It just might not ever turn into anything and I feel like I'm walking straight into a heartbreak. I don't know what to do...
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The Girl With A Broken Mind
Random*Adult Content* I'm turning my blog/diary into a book. They are basically diary postings without the dates. They are random postings about whatever I'm feeling that day. Very raw, very detailed about my life. My blog and now this book is to help peo...
