It's Not Selfish To Want To Live

Perfect Timing

Major TW: Explicit Abuse/Violence (+++) before and after
Suicide Attempt (***) before and after
This one is extra long, please take care of yourself.

Almost on autopilot, he moves to get off the bed. "No we can not just let him go home. You heard his dads fucking threats!" Hyunjin yelled. "Minho... I-" "Should I get a ride? I understand if its too much to drive me home..." Minho said numbly. Just from hearing his Father's voice, he looked down on the bed. "N-no, hyung please...I don't want you to get hurt." Jisung said brokenly trying to reach out. "This is all of our faults...we went to the police, we-" "No. You guys did the best you could, I'm not blaming you for anything...I'll uh, be okay... going now will be better then avoiding, and running away. Trust me." Minho said, his mind was frazzled, but he was not going to let them blame themselves. He was petrified, but if it was all going to end anyways? Why fight it? The punishment will only aid in ending it. "Hy-hyung please...We won't be able to ever see you?" Jeongin sobbed, trying to push through the blankets to get to Minho. Minho pushed forward catching him, bringing him to his chest, "Shh Innie, we'll figure everything out. You'll be okay." "But you won't be-be okay." Jeongin cried, and what was Minho to say? You're wrong? "I have to go love... I'm sorry guys... I always cause such...distress." Minho felt shame rise up. "Baby, there is nothing for you to apologize for. Channie hyung, is there really nothing we can do?" Jisung held his breath. Chan sighed, shifting his gaze to Minho, "We won't convince you to stay, will we?" Minho shook his head. He missed how Chan's eyes instantly filled with tears, he still couldn't look at anyone in the eyes. "Minho, just please, I- if you are in life threatening danger. The police can't just turn a blind eye." Chan said shakily. Minho's heart clenched hard. "I... don't think my mother would let that happen, I'll be okay." Minho said, hoping he was being believable. If he was being honest with himself, he was hoping his father would beat him to death. Minho pushed down that tantalizing thought. He looked around at them. All were at some degree of crying. He mustered up all of the love he felt for them, and put on a smile. "Don't cry for me you guys...I love you all so much, you'll never understand how important you are to me." Unfortunately that seemed to make them cry harder. Minho was being gently pulled into a huge hug. Jisung was the closest, shoving his face into Minho's neck sniffling.

After a few minutes, and waves of tears. Minho broke the sniffling silence, " I really should get going..." "Oh right..." Hyunjin muttered. Felix clung slightly longer, Minho let him of course. "Pixie I'll be alright." Minho whispered, he felt him shake his head, " I will be love, you'll be okay too." He kissed the top of Felix's head. He finally let go. Minho sighed, and went over to his bag...Fuck. The damn letters. He sure as hell can't give them out now. He glanced around, they were still trying to collect themselves. He subtly looked around, Chan's, Jisung's, Jeongin's, and Felix's bags were lined up next to him. He thought fast, definitely not Chan, he unpacks as soon as he gets home. Absolutely not Jeongin. He sighed, he should probably split them so they are less noticeable. He could hear them discussing something, he could see them in the corner of his eye. He was perfectly covering the two other bags, he split the stack, stuffing four into Jisung's, and swiftly placing the other three deep into Felix's duffle bag. He prayed they wouldn't find them while he leaves today, he knew Jisung was over wearing his clothes, opting for the others comfy sweaters; like now he was wearing Minho's favorite green fluffy sweater, and would throw his bag somewhere. Felix was no better, he lived in Changbin's clothes. He exhaled a breath he'd been holding the whole time. Closing his own duffle bag, and stood up. Changbin looked up from hugging a still sniffling Felix, "Hyung, call me if you need me, I'll be there in record speed no matter what. You don't have to say anything just call yeah? I'll beat his fucking ass at your word." Changbin said with a scowl. Minho looked up, finally meeting his eyes, and smiled softly. "Thank you Binnie."