How The Love Grew

❁54:Bandages❁

Jungkook stared at the numerous bandaged and unbandaged wounds and scars that looked painful enough to bring tears to his eyes. Not only tears but a wave of questions too. JK wondered the possible reasons due to which Jimin could have cut himself for.

For today's cut that Jimin was going to make, it was quite understandable for JK to assume that it was because of that toxic girl from the fanmeet but then again, what about these previous marks. What hurted Jimin so much in past that caused him to do this? As JK thought, the only thing that came to his mind was his own face.

He had hurted, neglected and insulted Jimin too much in the past due to which, it won't be a big factor to say that he was the reason behind these scars. So, he simply assumed that he was the reason. But just the thought of him being a person due to which his own love is hurting himself was horrible to him. He looked up at Jimin who flinched slightly.

"Did you cut yourself because of me?" Jungkook asked, his voice a little hoarse with sadness filled in it. Upon hearing JK, Jimin scrunched his eyebrows in confusion.

"What?" He asked, legit confused.

"You cut yourself because of me, right?" Jungkook said, a tear fell from his eyes as Jimin was taken aback.

"No! Why would I cut myself because of you?" Jimin replied, not wanting to make Jungkook feel guilty. Sure JK was a jerk to him in the past and sure he was the reason due to which Jimin was sad but it's not the actual reason why Jimin started self harming himself. There were many other reasons too that were blanketed by ignorance yet.

"Then why did you make these cuts?" Jungkook asked, straight forward, demanding an answer.

"It's because-" Jimin was about to say the reason but then he stopped. He couldn't tell him the reason. Not at all. Nobody knew about it except Taehyung. There's no way Jimin was going to disclose it. However, when he decided silence over speaking, that's when Jungkook assumed surely that he was the reason.

"See! You don't have anything to say because I'm the reason" Jungkook said, his voice cracking as more tears fell out. It confused Jimin. He wondered why he was crying.

Jungkook loved Jimin. He wanted to confess to him and wanted to get his trust back and make up for his past mistakes. But thinking that his past mistakes were so hurting to an extent that caused Jimin to self harm himself was a haunting thought for Jungkook. Even though he hurted Jimin so much, he never meant to make Jimin bleed because of him. And now that he was looking at how Jimin went through so much, he felt like a horrible person. He was disgusted by his own self and couldn't help but cry.

"Jungkook listen-" Jimin tried to stop him but that was useless.

"Jimin I'm sorry. I really am. Please don't hurt yourself because of me. I know I have been a bastard to you but trust me, I never meant to cause you such pain. Please don't hurt yourself because of me. I'm really sorry" Jungkook said, while crying like a small child. Jimin's heart clenched on the sight. He had never seen JK cry and today he really felt his heart break when he did. Suddenly, the familiar voice in Jimin's heart spoke up again.

See! He's crying because of you. You always make everyone worried about you. You are so selfish, Jimin. It's all your fault.

The voice said as Jimin felt like crying too. Seeing JK cry, he felt that it was his fault. Both the boys started blaming each other. It was until Jimin was so done with everything.

"Jungkook, it's not your fault" Jimin said, a little loudly, wanting to stop JK from crying.

"Yes, it is" JK cried out.

"No! it's not. It's related to my family. IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT" Jimin shouted, finally stopping Jungkook who looked up at him, face stained with tears.

"Huh?" He huffed.

"Jungkook! I can't tell you anything. I don't want to. It's personal. Just know that it's not your fault. I swear to God." Jimin said in one breath.

"Now leave! Please!" Jimin was on the verge of having a break down and he didn't want to talk about anything right now. Before he burst into tears, he wanted to be alone.

"But-"

"We'll talk about it tomorrow. It's midnight, Jungkook. Please leave. I don't want to talk right now. Please'' He pleaded as JK was hesitant to go out. He looked at the ground, where laid the blade. He bent before picking it up, not trusting to leave it with Jimin. He glanced at the boy one more time before leaving the room and closing the door behind him.

The moment he left, Jimin clashed on his knees as he cried his heart out. Finally, he sobbed continuously as thousands of thoughts were encircling in his mind at the same time. Jungkook caught him red handed and Jimin was praying that he doesn't tell anyone about it. He was so close to opening his dark secrets to Jungkook. Everything happened so fast that he could barely think of anything. And now, his heart felt heavy as he was panicking deep down.

That night, he didn't even realize when he drifted to sleep in between crying, on the floor. But crying to sleep wasn't something very new to him. It was just another depressing day of his life and from each passing day, it was getting worse. It was pushing him to the edge and he felt like he'll fall into the pit of darkness from this cliff very soon.

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Shinning sun was back with an another tiring day. Jimin opened his eyes feeling himself laid in his soft fluffy bed as he hugged his blanket even more, not wanting to wake up and face the cruel world again. But then, suddenly something hit his mind. He was crying last night on the floor when he fell asleep then how was he on the bed.

His eyes shot open as he sat up and when he did, he saw Jungkook sleeping with his bottom on the floor and head on the bed, beside him. His hands were crossed and his head was resting on it, on the bed. He was looking so peaceful while sleeping like this that it melted Jimin's heart.

He wasn't even surprised by seeing Jungkook. It wasn't that difficult for him to understand that maybe he got worried for him so he came here. But JK getting worried for Jimin was really like a hallucination. Jimin sat on his legs, criss cross applesauce as he felt warmness on his wrist.

He raised up his wrist to have a look at it and melted even more when he noticed that his carelessly bandaged gauze was no more there and his wrist was properly bandaged. His eyes fell on the nightstand beside his  bed where stood a small bottle of medical antiseptic liquid and scar removing cream. He couldn't help but blush immensely while looking at that.

The thought that Jungkook changed his bandages was something that was heartwarming for him and unconsciously, he was melting into a puddle at each moment. But then again, he wondered the same old unnecessary questions which were-

Does he deserve this?
Does he deserve being happy?
Does he deserve someone loving him?
Does he deserve someone caring about him?

Before, he could interrogate himself any further, he was interrupted.

"Jimin, you're up?" Jungkook asked, as Jimin looked up at him.

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Angst with a little touch of fluff because I felt like I was attacking y'all with too much angst. So, did you guys like it?

Once again, few more chapters are going to be super angsty and I'm sorry for that, but that's an essential part of the story. So be prepared!!!

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