Hidden Hearts Ranch

did you even love me

Sang

After our night of fun and in the bedroom, it was time to get up and go about our day. The boys had things to do and I had an appointment at the academy hospital to talk about the new wing so construction could get underway, now that we had the funds to build it. Plans have been done now it's just all the legal mumbo jumbo and to sign off the paperwork,since I can't legally do it Mr. Buble will do it. And I will be meeting him at the hospital since he has a meeting he will be at,figured it would be easier,none of the Blackbourne team has contacted me yet, and it actually hurts, I started to tell them my story, and when I asked Silas about Greece and the reason why I was personally going,he just up and walked away, I have no clue where their minds are and the only one that even apologized was Victor, Sean only hugged me and said he missed me. And when they explained things they tried turn things on me,maybe after all this time they truly didn't want me anymore,atleast not all of them, and with their brotherhood they would be damned to break their connections just to be with the one they loved. I was kicked out of their family blindsided. I don't know what to think anymore, I'd it wasn't for the eight guys I had fallen in love with that live in the big house at the ranch I would take off and be the ghost that I am. But I wouldn't do that to my guys. One of the weekends I'm gonna work them away on a weekend get away, if they didn't have missions to go on this week I'd take them to new York with me tomorrow. Go to my meetings go to the warehouse where the clothes are made and then the rest of the time spend it with the Kalo-Toma team.

Breakfast is eaten everyone said there good byes and I live house with some kind of afecrion or another now it was my turn to get dressed and head in with a meeting with Mr. Buble.

Since I have to business official,thought I'd go with a nicer than casual dress,don't need the jewels or crown,just me myself and I.
I grab the keys to the mustang

And head off to the hospital, i find a spot close to the entrance get out of my car lock up and head inside,due to the many times i have been here I tell the reception where I am going and have her call up to Mr. Buble who tells her to send me right up that he's just about finish with his meeting. So I head to the elevator taking it up to the conference floor, paperwork in hand and purse in hand,I talk to the reception and she tells me which concern room he is in and to go on right ahead he's expecting me so I walk down the hall, raise my hand and knock and when I hear a come in I enter only to be met with eleven pairs of eyes, a little freaky if you ask me, I excuse myself say a quick hello then walk to Mr. Buble for his signatures and tell him to fax it over to the number I have provided which is to my personal office at hidden Hearts and say goodbye. And out the door I go before anyone has a chance to figure out what happened I'm at the elevator,just as the door is about to close someone's foot stops it, I look down to the floor immediately not wanting to meet there eyes yet. I see two set of feet enter the elevator before they let it close, by their smells which haven't changed, the smell of Irish spring soap,and miss and berries I know it is Owen and Victor. I hear a throat clear and look up to be met with steel grey eyes looking as stoic as ever but he doesn't say anything has his mask on like usual so I don't know what he's thinking I look over to Victor with fire in his eyes he too doesn't say anything,can we say awkward. So the we ride the elevator in silence, get on the bottom and with a ding the elevator doors open but no one steps out and I'm in the back so I can't exactly get by them to leave, the only think I can say is excuse, I'd like to get out. They look at me sheepish and step out so I can get out of the stuffy elevator, ok I noticed somehow everyone managed to be downstairs by the time we made it out of the elevator,either jumped the stairs or they put in an express elevator that I didn't know about.

Still nobody said anything,Silas wouldn't even look at me,that kind of hurt, so with that I walked out to my car, for in started it and put the top down,they want to treat me like that so be it, I'll be away from them for a couple days anyway. As I was getting ready to back out, I see Victor running up to my car,with the rub of the back of his neck he asked me how in was doing I told him ok, which was the truth I am ok, I'm just gonna have get over it, maybe when things die down I can convince the guys to move with me far away from the blackbourne team. Victor still hasn't said much. So I ask Victor I'd there was anything he needed, he hesitated but eventually got up the nerve to ask me to be his date for a children's music gala this Saturday,since it benefits the music program he continues to run for children I agree and to send me the details and proceed to give him my phone number, he says he can pick me up,I tell him I'll just meet him there. Now to get Nicole to make me a gown in a hurry. If Victor is putting in the time to seek me out even a little I will make the effort with him, but until the others can talk line normal people and apologize I'm not going to waste my time, Victor and I have a quick friendly chat,still no one else came out to talk,hmm and I had a free day as well, oh well, Victor asks if he can see me over the next couple of days I apologize and let him know I will be in New York till Friday. And with that we depart on good terms with promises to speak during the week leading up to the weekend. Now home and I think a swim in the pool is a good place to start.