Hidden Hearts Ranch

I didn't tell the truth but I didn't lie

Kota

Why can't I just tell her, I know I've been busy lately,it's not like shes gonna think differently about me is she, she always been my ten, but when she asked if there was someone else, I didn't know what to say, I mean yeah there is but how do I tell her, the thing is it's not just someone else theres a couple if someone's,first my father just got out of jail, so there's that, just found out my sister is pregnant and she's still in high school, I had to talk to uncle and warn him about my father after seeing the way he takes care of my mom when I'm not there, I figure he's tell Charlie,it seems those three have something going on. And how do I go about telling Sang all of this when she has so much on her plate, but the way she walked away from me with unshed tears when I didn't answer broke my heart ,we hardly ever keep anything from each other ever since that day when we were eighteen and I can't tell her all this. We know something bigger is coming her way and we aren't sure how she's gonna come out of it this time. We thought last time we were going to lose her and now on top of her adoptive brothers,she has two biological brothers making them triplets and from the sounds of it nobody knows who he or what he looks like. I can't help but keep this stuff from her. And here comes Nathan to talk,by the look of it,it's not going to be good. So with that I tell him everything going on, he says Kota you do realize what she's thinking right now,don't you,1st your pulling away from her even if it's innocent,and when she asked you if there was someone else, you look away from her and don't answer. Think about Kota, why else would she be in the back of the plane by herself until raven and Corey went back there and not to have a romp in the sack. I just look at Nathan with wide eyes,Oh Shit! I didn't even think what would be going through her brain,she must hate me ,I just let her think over the last couple of weeks that their was another girl in my life, and Nathan must see when it clicks and says when the other two come out go back there and straightened it out. At first I don't think the extended family would work,but it has I used to watch those who couldn't make a normal two person relationship work how was eighteen of us going to work,,but somehow we do and if she thinks shes losing me like that,I will have to reassure her thats not it all, and with that I think about how to fix this and make it alright with my ten, for now I'm gonna sit here and try to relax,cause as much as I need to see her I'm not about to walk in on the three of them,who knows what they could be up to with raven in their,he can be a little convincing when it comes to her and if Corey is there,enough said and if she's sleeping I wouldn't want to wake her, just as we are about halfway into the flight, Corey and raven come out five me a look and gesture to the back,,so with a deep breath,I get up to head back, but not before then informing me she's asleep,just go in and hold her,she needs it.when she's awake talk to her. And with that I do as,as I'm told I found her in the bed asleep cradling her stomach, tear streaks down her beautiful face,but sleeping none the less,I take my shoes off and climb in with her and hold her tightly,just as I hear Kota, im sorry I'm not enough, I look down at her and tell her she's more than enough for me and more and with that I apologize for my stupidity about how I handled it and told her everything. She just listens as we cuddle into each other, when I am finished she says Kota I know your scares and as much as your not ready to be an Uncle with Jess being so young, how do you feel about being a father.i just look at her and catch her eyes and face and smash my lips to hers telling her exactly how I feel, when we realise each other from the kiss, I hold her stomach and tell her thank you for this gift. She just giggles and kisses me again and with that we talk about our future together and the rest of our family till we about two hours from landing, we get up,I put my shoes on give her a quick kiss and leave but not before she asks me to send Owen,Axel   in,I just look at her and she holds up four with her fingers  at first I was like why four, then it dawned on me she's carrying for babies in her little body. And with a kiss I tell Owen and axle. She wants to see them and they just nod and head back to see her.