Madame Williams ( teacherxstudent )

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tw: mention of sexual assault

DIANE'S POV:

"I love that song." Lou said, tilting her head backwards as she danced around the bed.

I watched her while I laid down in bed. I breathed on the last bit of my cigarette before breathing the smoke and getting rid of the remains by leaving them on the ash tray.

I laughed out loud at her moves.

I had turned on the record player like half an hour ago, and she had insisted on listening my 'The Cure' vinyl.

She twirled around, again, and I grabbed a pillow to throw at her, but she caught it in time and threw it back at me.

It was nice not worrying about anything for a minute and enjoy ourselves.

"You're a dork!" I laughed.

She threw herself on top of me and started tickling me. I laughed out loud, "Stop it!" I demanded.

Lou laughed along while I tried to fight her off of me.

"You smell like cigarettes!" She said, and didn't quit tickling me.

It was all laughter and fun. But...

PTSD is a bitch.

"Dee?" I could hear Lou a if  I was underwater. I had my eyes shut.

Tears ran down my cheeks.

I could remember being somnolent, half conscious - half unconscious. I could remember their hands on me, and I could remember barely having control over my limbs. It was peaceful yet so scary and felt like my body was a prison.

"Diane?" Lou's voice said softly. I could feel one of her hands caress my cheek, and I knew it was her because Andy wasn't like that.

I opened my eyes after what felt like ages.

"Sorry." I whispered.

Her eyes were full of concern, and she showed a bittersweet smile.

"Are you alright?" She asked.

She was off of me, now next to me being supported by one of her elbows.

"I remembered something unpleasant." I sighed shakily.

Lou grabbed one of my hands gently and kissed the back of it, "I'm sorry if I did anything..."

"No." I cut her off, "I didn't know it would trigger me either."

"Oh." She sounded surprised, "Has it happened before?"

I gulped, "A few times after it happened, but it went away after some time. I guess seeing Andy brought everything back."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop saying that." I said, my tone rather harsh.

Lou kept silent, and caressed my hand with her frail fingertips. "Are you sure you're alright?"

"I am. I just need a second." I said. "I didn't mean to sound harsh, I'm just a bit shaken."

She nodded and kissed my cheek, "Do you know what else triggers you?" Her sweet voice asked.

I smiled slightly, "I guess someone on top of me would be it."

Lou groaned, "I'm gonna have to bottom, right?"

I laughed. She made me laugh. I turned to my side and cuddled closer to Laura. "You can still fuck me from underneath."

Laura laughed and pecked my lips. "Should we seek for help? Maybe you need that."