𝑹𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒂 • yeonbin {BOOK 2} ✓

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𝑺𝒐𝒐𝒃𝒊𝒏 sat on the small metal table, getting lost in how familiar and comforting the cottage's backyard felt like. it was a place he could almost refer as home, but it never really got to the meaning the word was supposed to have, yeonjun was the only to actually do that.

the angel thought about telling kai everything that happen, from the start, and including his confusing feelings, but it wouldn't have much purpose. the ghost couldn't do anything with the information if not even soobin could do it, way less when the taller couldn't quite explain his own feelings. it would end up in the same place he was at the moment, clueless.

"here. i brought your favorite." the younger put a tray on the table, a teapot and two teacups resting on it. he sat beside soobin, pouring water in both cups before adding the tea condiments. rose and pomegranate for the older, lavender for himself.

"thank you." the angel smiled, glad he found kai after seeing yeonjun. the light brown haired male always comforted him with his presence, and he was desperately in need of comfort. kai nodded, acknowledging his gratefulness, and sipped his tea calmly.

"i'm listening. you can tell me anything you want that happened in this months."

"nothing much happened. i don't know." soobin shrugged, not really knowing what to say or how to feel. it was getting way to familiar to be like that, a mess. "me and daniel apparently broke up, i went to heaven, it's awkward and uncomfortable, i needed air and came here."

"why did you two broke up? you were way too good last time i saw you." kai furrowed his brows, of course he heard the two broke up, reason why soobin was in heaven and not hell, but it was still confusing. the two oldest were always together and doing everything possible with each other, to the point of doing illegal things to see one another. it was hard to believe there was a reason for them to broke apart.

"he said he loved me." soobin stared at his drink, it's dark pink color managing to remind him of the demon, somehow. it wasn't a topic he wanted to talk about, but kai was probably the only person he was okay with doing so, him and kaya. "but i don't love him back."

it felt wrong. six words never felt so wrong when leaving his mouth like the just spoken ones did, and again, confusion washed over him. soobin was starting to dread feeling so many things for daniel, the confusing and doubt were too consuming for him to take, and the hurt didn't help.

"why? i mean, why do you think you don't love him?" kai leaned on the chair, resting his elbow on it's arm. if soobin didn't love the royal demon, than kai probably didn't love eha, nor beomgyu loved taehyun, both things that obviously weren't true.

"i don't know, hyuka." the angel covered his face with both hands, rubbing his skin lightly. "daniel is just..." he didn't know what to say, or how to say it, actually, but even if not telling anything, soobin felt his eyes starting to burn with tears. too much for not wanting to cry. "he's just so welcoming, and so warm, and i feel to safe with him it's overwhelming. it feels so wrong to not be with him, i-i can't understand why."

soobin sobbed on his hands, lowering his arms to bury his face on them after. he missed yeonjun too much, even if they just saw each other. the male missed the way the demon looked at him, with care and gentleness, as if soobin was the most precious thing he had, as if the angel was some type of salvation among cursed days, as if the taller was his one and only. he wanted yeonjun back, didn't matter if it was selfish or wrong of him, he couldn't stop his heart of feeling so.

the black haired wanted the gentle touches and sweet stares, of course, but it wasn't just about that. he wanted to be the one putting a smile on the older's face, he wanted to be the one caressing his hair, the one staring at his crimson eyes that looked like rare jewels, soobin wanted to be the one to comfort the red haired when he felt down, to be the one the demon would feel comfortable to tell his secrets and cry on his shoulder after.

soobin wanted to be daniel's everything, just as much as the male was his.

kai got up from his seat, hugging the angel gently to try and comfort him in the best way possible. he knew it, of course, words weren't necessary, but what soobin said about the red haired made even clearer; he loved yeonjun. so much it was probably one of the deepest forms of love the ghost have ever saw, as if his soul, the purest and brightest one, was bond to love just as purely. it wasn't his right to tell soobin what he felt or not, though, there was some things soobin himself needed to find out.

"i doubt for a little if i loved eha or not in the start. it was an odd feeling and different from the one i had towards my parents." the ghost smiled softly when remembering the reaper girl, caressing the other's hair gently. "it took me a moment to realize that i couldn't see myself without her. she gives me a lot of problems, you know, and put me in a lot of difficult situations, so much i have to scold her, but i wouldn't change it for anything. eha is so dear to me, i realized anything would be worth it as long as i have her."

"that's really cute, kai, but why are you telling me this?" soobin raised his head, puffy cheeks and eyes staring back at the other. the angel could be really innocent and pure sometimes, looking at kai with eyes glistening in confusion and hurt. it was in times like that was shown, soobin was just scared, of living, of feeling, of losing, of himself and of others.

"i don't know, bin, but love is probably the most beautiful thing i know, so is loving eha."

"beautiful?" the taller furrowed his brows, feeling the ghost clean his wet cheeks gently while staring softly at him. kai smiled before getting up, turning to the garden for a moment before back to the male.

"i will give you a flower. it for sure will make you feel better and you can bring with you when going back to heaven. which one do you want?" soobin sniffed, still confused by the younger's words, and looked at the male's pointed nose and soft eyes.

the angel liked flowers, of course, but he didn't know how one could make him feel better. he had a million things in his mind and heart, eating him inside out as some parasite, and picking a simple flower wouldn't solve anything of it. soobin needed to discover what he was feeling, or simply stop feeling at all, that would be effective, not a plant.

it was hard to believed kai's words were true, though people probably used flowers in funerals and sad occasions for a reason, right? but maybe simply for it's beauty. soobin never thought of a flower as something dear to his heart, as if it's fragile petals carried a whole meaning he would be the only one to secretly know, as if it's color would bring him comfort and it's imagine itself a smile on his face.

soobin knew though, that yeonjun loved flowers. it could be seen on his eyes when looking at them, as if each one carried a piece of something important to him, including his mother. the angel knew too that the red haired lost most part of the admiration he had towards the plants, the sad and nostalgic look present of his eyes as well, gave that out.

the angel knew how to read the king's eyes more than anything. maybe because it was something he was always drawn to, as if while staring at the crimson irises he could reach yeonjun's soul and heart in their most raw form, no hidden secrets or spoken lies getting in the way. it was probably the reason why he liked his eyes so much.

"so? which one do you want?" kai ran a hand through his hair, fixing the strands that were falling on his eyes, he looked specially translucent under the shiny sunlight that kissed his skin softly. soobin blinked his eyes, staring at the small and colorful garden full of different flowers, then he stopped, eyes glued to a specific plant that somehow made him feel everything he didn't think a flower could do.

"a tulip. i want a red tulip."

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