𝑹𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒂 • yeonbin {BOOK 2} ✓

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𝒀𝒆𝒐𝒏𝒋𝒖𝒏 was hugging the angel for a while now, who had the face hidden on his neck and barely awake. it was late already, the moon rested high on the sky and shone through the curtains to caress the skin of a being with just as much, or maybe more, beauty; soobin. the red haired, however, wasn't even close of falling asleep, he was as awake as ever, staring at the younger and then at the ceiling from time to time.

he was filled with anxiety by the thought of leaving in a few hours, and not even soobin's smell, that somehow still managed to stay sweet after all the sex, seemed able to calm him down. yeonjun hoped with all his will that wasn't the last time he would see the taller, he hoped with all his heart he could be able to come back and see soobin, even if just for a second, before dying.

the king took a shaky breath, feeling his skin itch and uneasiness start growing inside him. he looked to the side, seeing soobin with eyes closed, and gently unwrapped his arm around the male, getting up from the bed after and making his way to the bathroom. yeonjun opened the faucet and splashed cold water on his face, keeping his eyes closed while focusing on his breathing.

'you don't need him.'

yeonjun froze in place immediately after hearing his own mind speak the words he dreaded to hear, the feeling of being suffocated coming to him along with the one of having a parasite crawling under his skin. he shook his head, tapping his cheeks softly to try and make it go away, to make it all better, but was faced with failure.

"no, no, no, no." the male whispered desperately, raising his stare to the mirror and being welcomed by fully black eyes. it brought panic to his veins, making him close the drain and fill the sink with water, waiting for it to be full as every second felt like an hour, increasing his panic. "please, not now. not here." yeonjun hands started to tremble and he put his hands on the counter, trying to breathe slowly and properly. "you're fine daniel. you're fine. just breathe and everything will be fine."

he sighed in relief when the sink got fully filled and closed the tap, grabbing the counter edges strongly before sinking his face on the water while with closed eyes. the demon held his position as best as he could, starting to feel his lungs begging for air as he tightened his grip as hard as he could to force himself into handling more time of his head submerged. when he couldn't take it anymore, he pulled away, coughing and gasping for air as water dripped from his hair and face, hitting the filled by water sink.

'you don't want him. he will ruin everything.'

"no! i love soobin. soobin is my everything, i will be fine. he will be fine. fuck- just breathe daniel, don't make things worse." yeonjun held his head in his hands, pacing around the bathroom while whispering to himself. he hated when that happened, he hated how his mind got confused and seemed to divide into his right self and monster self, and he hated how his right self always ended up losing, getting consumed by harsh words and parasitic feeling. "soobin will be fine, i promised to try. he didn't give up on me, i will be okay, we will be okay. i will get better and come back to him, so i need to be strong."

'loving him makes you weak. it will turn you powerless.' yeonjun dreaded the words, how they affected him, how they were whispred until he believed them. though, it wasn't something he could control, something he could get rid of, it was himself, thinking what he shouldn't, wondering about thing he deep down knew weren't true, but still felt like could be. that part of him was always there, always waiting for a chance to be shown, and now, it appeared to have a lot of liberty between the cracks of his mind and wounds of his heart. it was like his own mind and self was turning against him.