𝑹𝒉𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒂 • yeonbin {BOOK 2} ✓

°•❁𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒚 𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕❁•°

°•°•❁•°•°
•°❁°•

°•𝒂/𝒏 • this chapter is purely composed by taemin's letters, there will be no narrative from yeonjun or any other character. please take note the letters were written by taemin progressively during the events of rhemira, which means there will be description of events that already happened, or lack of information yall, as readers, already know of. it's all written, obviously, in taemin's point of view and there were a lot of things he didn't know of and a lot of things he did, don't be confused when he talks about something in a different way from how you know things, let's remember he died before chapter forty and a lot happened after that. for any matters, you can ask me if you don't understand something and i will do my best to make things clear<3•°

°•THIS IS A LONG CHAPTER•°

°•❁•°
°•°•❁•°•°

╭────────────╯•╰────────────╮
•°❁°•

dear daniel,

if i'm being quite honest, i wasn't counting with having to write a letter, way less more than one. i was always someone who preferred to say things aloud, make them as clear as possible, be sure they were heard and taken seriously. i assume we both know it's not possible this time, by now.

it took me some time to process what i had seen, to understand what it meant and what would follow with it. i had the vision yesterday morning, the images of my own death are engraved in my mind, but the thoughts of you managed to be stronger. i know you dan, at least i like to think i do, therefore, i know my death will affect you more than i would ever wish to.

you were always such gentle person, with such big heart, even if a hidden one. it's almost as if you kept a precious gemstone hidden between your walls and away from everyone, but truth be told, even if hidden, it's still possible to see it shine under the right light. i wish such preciousness wouldn't have the risk of being lost, but i know it does.

having the vision had brought me a lot of fears, but none was of myself, of dying and losing my life, i always lived with the certainty of my own death, always aware of it and how it couldn't be avoided, so i promise you, i'm okay. however, i know you aren't. you need to be sure, dan, that i never wished to leave, i never will too, but there are things that can't be stopped, only lived, even if unfairly. maybe you will hate me a little for doing something similar of leaving, maybe you will hate me even more for not telling you about the vision, and it's okay. hate me, daniel, but hate me knowing i never wanted you to be left.

i never measured by words when saying how important you are for me, and i won't start doing so now. i don't want to leave. in all honesty, i wish i didn't have to, never, because even if i myself knew we would part ways at some point, as your death is confirmed too, i remain wishing i could have you forever. of course, not in the way i know you wish to have soobin, we both know 'me and you' is something different. i could risk saying you're my home, my safe place where i can always come back to when in need, and i could risk saying you're my other half too. in any case, i don't need to risk when saying you're someone i never wished for, never thought i could have, but still managed to be the best thing that happened in the long years i lived.

knowing we would part ways didn't make meeting you less special, nor did it make less worthy. i would die any day, how many times it would be necessary, to have the moments we have. to keep every memory and smile, even if losing you hurts like never before.

so, i'm sorry, dan. i'm sorry for not telling you i will die, i know you would try your hardest to find a way, but some things are not worth it and making you tire yourself with something inevitable doesn't seem worthy at all. i need to die, daniel, time ends for everyone and mine is just a little shorter than we expected, just know i would stay if i could, and even if i go, my love for you stays. you will be kept as my soulmate, always, because things strong and important like that don't get lost. i know losing me will hurt, i know it because losing you would break me too, but you will still have beomgyu beside you, ruby too and i know by heart, soobin will be there just as much.