Alone With Ross

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[An The Xx Angels is kinda the theme song to Alone With Ross I just haven't gotten around to making a trailer for my books yet because I don't have a computer yet.]

The same night

"L-love?"

And I'm dead.

I lost all train of thought.
My brain has disconnected from my body.
I have stopped breathing.
And my heart was pounding.

"N-no I couldn't possibly- Her and I, that can't ever be a thing."

And like that cloud nine has vanished, and I was falling.

"She's broken beyond repair, she's bipolar, she confusing as hell, need I say more?"

This has to be a fucking nightmare.

"Denial? I've only known her for a couple months." He paused listening to her, and I could faintly hear her voice.

"What did I tell you? Huh?"

He sighed reluctantly. "Time isn't a measure of love." He said so very quietly. "But, you don't know me anymore, and you certainly don't know her. We're opposites. And we fight constantly. And she's just always so... witty and sarcastic and- Oh will you shut up! Yes, I like her. More than I should. I like her, even knowing that in the end we just might come crashing down like dead stars. I like her knowing the fact that the baggage she comes with is heavy, and I might just collapse beneath the pressure. " He spoke louder now. "I like her, with knowledge of the fact that I am going to fall in love with her. And I have never been more anxious and afraid in my life. She's worth the pain, she's worth the walk to hell and back. She's worth it."

I placed my hand over my mouth, to hold back my sobs. I was so incredibly moved at his words, I was so moved that my grip on the banister slipped and I tumbled down the stairs, and I had no doubt in my mind that Ross heard it.

So I just laid there, waiting for his disproving tone to come near me, and eventually it did.

"Caspian?" I looked up to the top of the stairs to see him sanding there, covering the mouth of the phone. "What are you doing?"

Ignoring his question I finally spoke out. "I hate you so much right now." I put my hands over my eyes, embarrassed at being caught eavesdropping.

It was quiet. Me and him both taking in his conversation with April.

"April, I'm gonna have to call you back." He hit end and sat at the top stair, sighing, while I was still laying at the bottom, crying.

"So what? Aren't you going to tell me how stupid I am? How much you hate me?" Ross asked. I sat up and looked at him in confusion.

"No I-"

"Go ahead! Tell me how fucking stupid I am! Tell me the I don't have a chance... Tell me that we don't have a chance!" He yelled and stood up. I stood up also and pushed him back until his back hit the wall and I collided with him.

"I like you. You like me. Easy as that. And if this all turns to shit in the end, I don't fucking care, you're worth it too." Me and him were both breathing heavily, and my willpower to ignore him has once again crumpled as I gave him a harsh kiss.

It was searing, it felt as if we had both bursted into flames right here in this shabby old kitchen. The world paused to observe this one speckle in life. One where two minds are one and one where no air was needed.

But the world went onto better things making our need for oxygen more apparent.

We broke off the kiss, both sighing in content, our foreheads touching.

"Be my girlfriend." He breathed out.

I laughed slightly at his tone, as if he were sleep talking.

"Sure, why not." I laughed again making him roll his eyes and he once again caught me off guard with a kiss.

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February 17th 2012

The snow outside was sticking to the ground, and I was pleased to be bundled up even with the fact that I was in a nice warm building.

I leaned over on my elbow against my desk. The teacher was droning on about how we should've known everything about manifest destiny because it was taught to us in junior high.

Well I knew everything about it, I was just far too lazy to join in on history class. Besides the blizzard outside was far more interesting.

With it being second semester my schedule had changed, and me and Ross have only two classes together, which thank god, because if he was with me right now I wouldn't be able to breathe.

He's not suffocating me, just breathing too much of the same air I am.

It's just been really strange. The main struggle of our relationship used to be that we weren't in a relationship. Well now that we are Ross is showing his mushy side, and that is basically him wanting to cuddle 80% of the time while the other 20% he wants to go bake a cake or some shit like that.

And can I say that his brownies are to die for.

Everyone else in the commons house has noticed the change as well. I guess the 2 a.m. screaming matches coming to a standstill has tipped them off.

But honestly I want to fight with him.
I want passion.
And I'd just also like an opportunity to smack him in the face for drooling on my pillow.

"Miss Graber?" The teacher called me.

I was still looking outside when I answered a brisk "Hmm?"

"Would you like to inform the rest of the class about manifest destiny?" He said thinking he was going to make a fool out of me.

Oh you wait to be put in your place old man.

I continued on looking out the window watching as the wind made the snow blow at the window. I sighed and began. "Manifest destiny was the belief to move West because they were blessed by a higher power."

I peeked over at him to see him frowning at me. "Any relations with the gold rush?"

I laughed through my nose and shook my head. "That wasn't until years later." I paused and finally sat up. "Want me to teach the class about that as well?" I gave him a smug look and he coughed slightly and shook his head.

"That won't be necessary, class is almost over, but before it is you all have to go back and read chapter-"

I didn't listen to the rest of what he had to say, mostly because he was just going to make us review for a test I already have knowledge of.

I felt my phone buzz against my leg and I looked up to see the teacher was writing the chapters that the class had to read tonight. So I grabbed my phone to see it blown up with messages from Ross.

I rolled my eyes because most of them consisted of him calling me pet names.

It was the last one that made me groan.

"Hey you're going to have to ride the bus today, basketball tryouts start today. Sorry. I'll make it up to you when I get home, how does pizza and The Big Bang Theory sound?"

I shook my head smiling, he may like to be really mushy, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it. We really balance each other out. He's there to provide the hugs when needed and I will gladly punch him in the gut when necessary.

"How about Hey Arnold instead, it's the least you could do since you're abandoning me to play basketball." I texted back and quickly put my phone away at the sight of the teacher turning around.

My phone buzzed again am I peeked to see "Shut up." From Ross making me laugh.

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Hi.
So I'm kinda late but I have an excuse.
My birthday was on the 20th and I had to go out to a lot of dinners with different family members because of my divorced family and also school ended and so I just kind took a break but now I'm back and get ready for the fluff with Rospian
Love,
Aliah