Alone With Ross

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Ross' POV

"We need a break."

It was just four syllables to shut me up. I sat on the bed in shock and I glanced at her to see her equally shocked.

"Babe, you can't be serious." The words tumbled out of me in a panic.

She shook her head at me making my stomach clench. "I'm 100% serious."

"Why?" I sounded like a child. This is what I have resulted to, to whining in disbelief.

"A-are you fucking messing with me?" She asked hysterically. "You just threw that fact that I was raped in my face like it was no big deal."

I huffed and stood. "You threw my parents in my face like it was no big deal-"

"Yeah! After you threw my dead parents in my face!" She screamed back at me.

I really said all of that?

I sat back down on the bed and put my face on my hands, dragging them down in complete disbelief.

"What, you have nothing else to say?" She asked bitterly. "Nothing else about how I'm a tainted piece of orphan garbage? Huh Ross?" She pushed at me and all I could do was sit there and take it.

"Why have the insults stopped? Huh? What happened?" She shoved me again and I grabbed her wrists. "Ooh must feel like a big man now, you got me by the wrists." She taunted.

"Please stop." I begged as I tried to drag her forward into a hug but she pushed me away and got out of my grasp.

"What happened to you telling me off huh? Keep em' coming Ross, I could take anything from you!" I saw tears welling up in her eyes this time around and I tried to reach out for her.

"I'm not going to say anything else!" I said exasperated. "Caspian," I looked her directly in the eyes. "I love you."

"Shut up!" She grabbed one of the nearby pillows and hit me roughly with it. And I sat in awe as she started sobbing. "If you loved me," She dropped the pillow. "You would have never said those things to me!"

"Caspian please just listen." I felt so conflicted, I usually know how to handle her when she's emotionally unstable, but not when I'm the one causing her the trauma.

She just shook her head at me before turning towards her bed and grabbing her hoodie and heading out of the door.

Few seconds later I heard the slam of the front door and I was only left to hang my head in shame.

I promised myself to never let my anger get the best of me, and to never hurt Caspian with a random outburst.

But I always knew I couldn't hide this side of me.

Yes, I Ross Lynch am a flawed human being, sporting a relationship ruining Intermittent Explosive Disorder.

I don't know what the hell happened. I've been okay for months! Well, other than the first time I kissed Caspian.

I've had this condition since I was eight. I felt like a freak. I mean, what are the odds? I have three brothers and a sister and yet I'm the only one that got fucked up?

What does god have against me?

I was startled by the door opening and slamming against the wall to see Piper standing there heaving.

"You have got to be fucking kidding me." She said shaking her head at me and I just put my head in my hands. "I thought you were better than this." She spat making me tense up.

I looked at her slowly, picking my head up from my hands giving her and incredulous look.

"Better than what? It was an accident!" I yelled and she rolled her eyes looking at me straight on.

"Have you stopped taking your medication?" She wasn't really asking, more like accusing.

I was left to pathetically look at the ground again as she sighed in disappointment.

"I don't understand how April ever put up with you." She said lowly.

"I really don't either." I felt my blood boiling again.

"Why the fuck did you stop? Do you not remember all the messed up shit you said to April the last time you did?"

"Yes I remember it perfectly fine." I retorted and she fucking kept on.

"Well of you knew then what gives? You get a kick out of hurting pretty girls?" She taunted making me ball my fists up.

"Don't talk about them like that." I hissed.

"What? Are you actually concerned that I'd take Caspian from you like you took April from me-"

"I'm not fucking stupid, I know how much shit you've been feeding her about me, so when something like this happened she'd come running to you." I shook my head. "I fully accept your sexuality-"

"I don't need acceptance from a douche like you." She interrupted.

I glared at her. "Well, I accept it, it's just why are you always preying on girls I like?"

Piper flicked my forehead. "Listen here you stupid fuck. I have no interest in Caspian, and April was mine."

"And yet she still picked me over you in the end." I smiled towards her and she just crossed her arms across her chest.

"Look asshole, I'm not here for a pissing contest. I'm here to tell you to get your shit together for Caspian's sake... Because believe it or not, I really do think you're what's best for her." She said the last part quietly before flicking me again. "That is when you take your medication and quit acting like a damn fool."

"Okay, I get it, now get out of our room you're not allowed up here anyways." I said annoyed at her presence.

"Please, you really think Mama Vi is concerned about me being in a place filled with boys?" She laughed before heading towards our door.

Before she left she stopped and turned to look towards me. "And Ross?"

"Hmm?" Why isn't she leaving?

"April didn't pick you in the end... she didn't pick either of us." She said lowly and I felt a twinge in my heart at this.

I sighed in defeat and nodded my head. "Yeah, I know."

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-Aliah