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31. Mini's diary entry after years

Mini entered her room to sleep but then was feeling so happy after sitting on the bed and reminiscing Neil's confession that she could feel butterflies in her stomach and burning cheeks, cause she was blushing hard.

Mini sat on her bed and took out a new diary from her bag which she purchased some days back for writing down her thoughts about her new life. She kept the photo of Neil on her phone in front of her and started writing looking at his photo. She knew this is a perfect day to start writing her diary again.

"Dear Diary, Bahot time baad mil rahe hai na hum... Kitne saal ho gaye.... But you know why I purchased a new one.... because I feel to live again... A new life... A different life... A life where I can also be happy.... be free... be lively.... be myself.... and even be loved by someone.... loved by Neil... the person whom I love..... 

Tujhe pata hai dear diary... main jab Neil ke saath hoti hu na to mujhe ek alag hi sukoon ka ehsaas hota hai... ek fulfilment feel hoti hai... Mujhe to yeh bhi nahi samajh aata ki main iss emotion ko kis tarah se define karu but I really feel happy around him.... 

Aur iss baar mujhe nahi lagta ki main tujhse kisi aur baare me baat karne waali hu... because vo sab baatein to main ab Neil se bhi keh sakti hu na... Main jo bhi feel karti hu... ups and downs.... main sab usko bata sakti hu... jaise kabhi main tujhe bataya karti thi... He is like a human diary for me... jo meri saari baatein sun ke bhi kabhi mujhe judge nahi karega...... 

But uske hi baare me usse baat thodi na karungi... varna chane ki jhaad pe chad gaya to... (chuckled) kaan pakad ke utaarna padega na.... (smiling) isiliye uske baare me tujhse keh rahi hu.... He has made me live once again... he is only one reason for whom I have started believing in hope... I have started to hope once again.... the hope for a happy life... the hope for a cute sweet little family... the hope to have love in my life... 

Aaj jab Neil subah subah neend me badbada raha tha na to uska dar dikh raha tha uski baaton me par shaam ko jab Neil sapna dekhte hue bol raha tha na.... Apni feeling confess kar raha tha.... mujhe ekdum se aisa laga jaise mujhe ek contentment... ek fulfillment mil gayi ho... I felt complete from within.... Kisi aise se jisse aap pyaar karte ho.... usse proposal milne par kitni different feeling aati hai na... jisko shabdon me nahi bayaan kar paate par mehsoos karke bahot alag sukoon milta hai... uska neend me bola hua confession bhi itna pyaara hoga... maine to socha bhi nahi tha... 

uske ek ek shabd se aisa lag raha tha jaise mujhe kahin na kahin ek ajeeb si gudgudi feel ho rahi ho... sunne me bahot pachkaana lagta hai but aisa lag raha tha jaise vo pal wahi tham jaaye... ekdum se ruk jaaye aur main bas Neil ko dekhti rahu...Uski vo pyaari si hasi ko kahin apne andar basa lu... main uska aaj confess kiya hua ek ek shabd apni soul tak me feel kar paa rahi thi... (laughing at herself) Paagal ho gayi hu main sacchi me... kuch bhi soch rahi hu... but kya karu... feel hi yeh kar rahi hu aaj main.... jab Neil ne neend me kaha na..

"tumhari baaton se lekar khamoshiyon tak... tumhari khushiyon se lekar tumhare har gehre dard tak.... tumhari muskurahat se lekar tumhare har aansu tak.... tumhare har khumari se lekar tumhare har qaraar tak... tumhare saath hona chahta hu main.... tumhare paas hona chahta hu..... bas tum hi khwaish ho meri.... aur kuch nahi chahta ab main apni iss life se... kuch bhi nahi..... bas tum Mini... sirf tum... "Meri Mini"... "Meri Mini Madam"....." 

Aisa laga jaise life me jo kuch khoya hua ho... vo mil gaya ho mujhe.... I felt a wide range on emotions at a single moment. An extreme of happiness... peace.... relief.... contentment... everything. I felt so blessed and fortunate. I can't even tell you everything I felt in words...

Tujhe pata hai dear diary, aaj ke din mere man me itni baatein hai na ki main likhti gayi to shayad puri diary hi bhar jayegi... to main yahi ruk jaati hu... Bye"

She closed the diary and slept hugging it tightly, smiling brightly.

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Next day, 

Kyun Dikhe Mujhe Tu
Sirhane Mere

Mini opened his eyes and saw Neil laying on her bed beside her, sleeping with a charming smile. She was shocked. She rubbed her eyes and looked again. He was not there. She was day dreaming. 

Soch Ke Teri Baatein Hum
Muskurane Lage (x2)

She smiled at herself with a slight blush and got up. She kept the diary in her almirah and took out her clothes blushing hard.

Dil Se Nikal Ke Aahein
Lafzon Pe Aane Lage

Neil got up and came upstairs whistling in a tune.

Kaisi Teri Khumaari Hai
Hum Gungunane Lage

He came to the balcony and looked at the mugs they kept last night and reminisced their last night balcony "date".

Channa Ve Channa Ve
Kuchh Toh Hai Tere Mere
Darmiyan Kyun Lage (x2)
Channa Ve

He was smiling and blushing when Mini came in the balcony to spread her towel and looked at him.

Haaye Bhul Gaya Jag Saara
Tere Naal Pyar Ae

Mini was surprised seeing him blushing like that.

Saari Saari Raat Mujhe
Tera Intezar Hai Ho Ho (x2)

She kept her hand on his shoulder.

Ankhiyon Mein Dekho Meri
Teri Hi Pukaar Hai

He turned to her.

Neil: H?

Tu Meri Dua Mein Base
Itni Si Guhaar Hai

Mini: Subah Subah bada smile kar rahe ho.... kuch khud se soch ke sharma rahe ho... Kya hua?

Dil Se Nikal Ke Aahein
Lafzon Pe Aane Lage

Neil: (hiding his blush) Kuch nahi... mood bahot accha hai.... Dekho kitni beautiful morning hai na?

Kaisi Teri Khumaari Hai
Hum Gungunane Lage

Mini: (reminiscing her today's dream) Ha hai to...(shrugging her thoughts to focus on the day) Anyways... restaurant me aaj ke corporate lunch ke jo clients hai unke menu ke details maine forward kar diya hai.... dekh lena..... Main recess ke baad aa jaungi...Rani di ko aaj jaldi jaana hai.... Arya ke saath thoda time spend karungi... Tum restaurant me sambhal lena.

Channa Ve Channa Ve
Kuchh Toh Hai Tere Mere
Darmiyan Kyun Lage (x3)

Neil: Ok.. Perfect.

Mini: Good!

Channa Ve
Channa Ve
Channa Ve

They heard Arya calling them from downstairs.

Arya: Veerbalika! Neil! Bus ka time ho raha hai... Chalein?

Mini: Are... jaldi chalo... Arya ki bus chut jayegi...

They dropped Arya to the school bus and went to the restaurant.