On Tour With 5sos...

hospital

Tracy pov

I play with Hailey's hand, there's a needle thingy in it and her wrists are bandaged.

She will make it, the doctors told us but we need to wait till she wakes up.
On the meen time we give her food by a tube. It looks strange but she needs to eat to go against her anorexia.

I look up from Hailey's hand to Luke, who sits to her right side also holding her hand, he's the hole time mumbling something.

"Where did it all go wrong" i say, breaking the awkward silence in the room.

"Well, she's just depressed, always was but i think what happend the last couple months is just a bit too much for her" Amber answers me.

I nodd, letting a big sigh out of frustration.
I let go of Hailey's hand and walk out of the room to the ladies room.
I look in the mirror, big bags under my eyes, my hair fading out and my make up is all over my face.

I begin to cry, where did it all go wrong? She meens too much for me.
I roll my sleeves up, relieving old white stripes.
There are hunderds of them, i trace them down with my finger, remembering everytime i did this to myself.

I bite my lip, i can't go back to that, even how hard i want that, i can't let it happen to a second one.

I remember the day Hailey told us she cut, like if it was just a second ago.

*flashbaaaaack*

"Guys i need to tell you something" Hailey says, she's on the coutch, i'm tuning my bas on a box , Amber's behind her drums and Zerah sits on the ground.

"Sure, what's wrong Hemmo" Amber says putting her drunsticks in her pocket.

She mumbles something below a whisper and i bend forwards "can you repeat it, i didn'd hear it" i say.

"I cut" she says, her face now full of tears.

We're silence, i feel tears fall down my face, Hailey can't. Not she too...

"Me too" Amber whispers and our heads snap to her.

"Me too" Zerah says rolling her sleeves up, relieving red marks.

"So we all cut" i say playing with my bracelets.

"That meens we need to be here for eachother" Amber says and stands up, walking to the coutch and sit down next to hailey and begins to cuddle her.
I stand up and join them together with zerah.

"We will survive this" i whisper.

After that it was silence, the only sounds was the album from Sleeping With Sirens and our sobs.

*end of flashback*

I walk back to the room to find only Amber, Zerah and hailey.

"They're getting pizza" Amber says and i nodd, sitting back on my place.

"Can we sing 'stay away from my friends?' " Amber whispers.

"I don't know that song" i whisper.

"It was the song Hailey always sang when she was in the shower when she didn'd talked" Zerah whispers.

I nodd "i will sing the parts i heard" i say and we nodd.

Amber
Waking up your neighbors downstairs,
I've been inside your bedroom a thousand years.
And as you tie me to the bed for good I say
that I want you in the most unromantic way.

Tracy
Louisiana, you're torturing me with a beautiful face.
Ana come on, I thought we had a damn good thing.
A penny in the couch and a diamond ring.

Zerah, amber and tracy
So baby stay away from my friends,
'cause I need them to carry me.
When it's over I'll count back from ten,
and you can listen to glass hearts shattering.

Zerah
I don't know how you got into me,
down my throat and made a home in my veins.
They used to be the rivers that would take us away,
but now you only call me every Christmas and my birthday.
I still can't believe how you look next to me,
just like a strip club bedroom scene.

Zerah, amber and tracy
Baby stay away from my friends,
'cause I need them to carry me.
When it's over I'll count back from ten,
and you can listen to something that you've never heard before.

Tracy
But you don't know what it's like
to wake up in the middle of the night,
scaring the thought of kissing razors.
This blood evacuation is telling me to cave in.
Stay away.
Oh no.
Just stay away from my friends.

"That was beautiful" a small raspy voice says.

We look to Hailey, her blue eyes open and a small smile on her face.

"How you feel" Zerah askes, stroking her cheek.

"Like shit" she mumbles closing her eyes again. "Where's Lukey?" She askes turning her head.

"He's getting pizza with the lads" Amber chuckles.

"I want pizza" she smiles.

I smile, seeing she finaly wants to eat something.

"I will text them you're awake and want some too" Amber says and stands up while walking away and is soon replaced by 4 mexican guys running inside the room followed by a nurse.

"LITTLE TACO" they yell at the same time and tony runs to Hailey giving her a hugg while Vic gives me a hugg "hi Tracy" he says in my ear and i smile.

"Hi vic" i say blushing, yes i like Vic. More then Calum but i'm aren't going to say that.
The 5sosfam will hate me if i broke the puppies heart.

Hailey pov

"So you were again on the top of the bus" i laughe to tony.

"Yeah" he laughs scratching his neck.

"You never get alcohol again" i say in the same voice he said to me a couple months ago.

"Hehe, try to stop me i can buy it legal" he put his tongue out.

I smile, leaning my head back on the pillow.
"It's nice to see you again tony" i smile.

"Same, only not here" he says taking my hand.

"I know" i mumble.

"But, the next time we see eachother is at warped and you are trapped with me for half a year" tony boops my nose.

I smile and give him a kiss on his cheek.
"Thank you tony" i smile.

"For what?" He askes putting his snapback off and turn it around.

"For being here with me" i say, his thumb making cirkles on my hand.

"No problem little turtle" he says.

Then the door burst open, reliebing 6 aussies and 3 mexicans who are over happy.
"You can go homeeeeeeeee" ashton jumps and we begin to laugh.

"Can i play the show of tonight?" I ask biting my lip.

"You can, but not guitar, your stitches can break" Tracy says and i sigh.

"But who's doing my part?" I ask.

"I can do it" Tony says, a smile on his face.

"That would be lovely." I smile.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lizzy, stop reading my fucking book

I want to write open BUT I CAN'T NOW!!!!!!!

LY X