Krystal's History [EXTREMELY OLD]

Why Can't He Notice Me?

Kira's POV

I've never felt so down when it came to a boy... KillerK usually helps me about my love wanting problem, but Ty's different... I actually like him. I helped him so much, yet it feels like he sees me as just that girl who helped him. Some person in the shadows.

I hate when people think me as that. 

I learned this on my path of life, I like attention. I thought I was a more silent type, but no, I LOVE attention. And Ty not giving me the attention I want is hurting me. Or more likely, it makes me hurt me. I used think about Indirect Suicide, where I think it means I won't physically hurt myself, but do something to hurt something that isn't intentional. But now I'm just cutting with a pencil sharpener blade and writing small hate notes on my arm and little pictures. Is this still Indirect Suicide actually?

But I still have hope. They saved me from my old life. I usually pray for my wounds in and out to be healed. I'd hate it for someone to care just for pity, it's stupid.

I was walking through the halls when Ty raced past me and made me fall back onto my bottom. I turned to see his not caring and not stopping at all. I felt a tear run down my cheek as I covered my head with my hoodie with my hair covering my face with my head down. I hate having people see me cry. That's one of my least favorite attentions.

I was running outside when I fell down and scratched myself. Everyone was playing outside, even Ty. But Ty never noticed, he just walked back inside talking to some of the others and only a couple helped me up. I was just lucky nobody found out about my cuts on my arm.

I gave up, Ty doesn't want me and I cut for it. Just 1/10 of a cm of a cut for every time Ty has not noticed me. Not much? I have made a picture of hearts being shattered with most of the suicide method's I've considered on my left arm! So about 6 hearts being poisoned, exploded, drowned, burned, hung, and shot!

Why can't Ty just notice me!?

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Okay,  so I've been doing ship chapters and I kind of felt like Kira's cries for attention should be noticed cause of-- Oh wait, hints and clues are for the 100th chapter X3. That's kind of why I've been stalling the main story, or maybe giving more hints?