I Needed to, I Had to

The File

"What do you mean by you almost died?

-I had an uterine hemorrhage

-How did it happen?

-I don't know!" He got up and sat on my desk.

"You know...Giving birth is hard but...Alone, it's even worst. Nobody to hold your hand, just you and the medical team."

-Why didn't you tried to....ask for some help from his father?" I turned my head toward him and he seemed so concerned. The situation couldn't be more ironic, he was asking me that when he actually is his father. Was it a joke from heaven?

"If you were his father....do you think you would have been able to help me?!

-Yes, Did you forget that I'm rich?! I....

-This is exactly why you wouldn't have been able to help me!" He frowned, dumbfounded by my statement.

" Do you think your father would have let you help me? Do you think he would have let me keep the baby? All I would have done was proving he was right! He would have found a way to chase me away without you even knowing! Just because you're rich doesn't mean that you ...!" I stopped when I saw his shocked face at me yelling. I jumped from my chair and took my handbag.

"I'm sorry, it must be because of tiredness....I will go buy some coffee!

-Tiana!"

        I faked not hearing him calling me and just ran out. I slide against the door, and tried to regain my normal breath.

"Sorry, Tiana..."

       I was shocked and I felt bad so much hearing him apologize when it's not really his fault. I was actually the one who got too carried away. I'm the one who didn't tell him and still not telling him. I'm just afraid of so much things. There is so much obstacle in me and JongIn and I wouldn't really mind them...If it was just us but, what if Jason got hurt? I can't hurry just because I want to tell him! If he took it bad he can reject Jason, or  If when I tell him his father heard about it...I can't even imagine what he would try to do to me or Jason and.....There is still Kevin. I don't know where he is and how he went out of jail this early but he could always hurt me or JongIn or Jason!

         I got up and did as I said. When I came back JongIn seemed down. I really felt guilty seeing him like this. I put his Frappuccino on his desk and he didn't even move. I went behind him and pulled on his chair. He seemed surprised as if he haven't realized I was there in the first place. I turned his leather chair toward me. He seemed really surprise and it was pretty funny so I couldn't help but to let a little giggle out. I smiled at him.