I Needed to, I Had to

A Sign

*Kai's POV*

                          I was at the bar with a glass of whiskey at 6pm. I didn't know this bar but it was not far from the hotel I was sleeping at. The barman looked nice so I went in and sat at the counter. I had too much on my mind, I couldn't work and couldn't understand how we ended up like this. I knew I had been more absent that I should but I thought she could understand if it was for us. Was I really all wrong in this situation? What have I done that deserve me to be kicked out? I couldn't understand and at the same time I couldn't help but feel like she wasn't understanding me either.

                           I took a sip of my whiskey and sighed deeply. She had told me things that hurted me and I could have tell her how mean it was but I've been way more cruel to her before. I've said things to her and hurt her more deeply than that, multiple times, so who was I to even blame her for that. I could even see how sorry she was for telling me in her eyes. I couldn't help but worry about her when I remembered how violent her nightmares were. As I was passing my hand in my hair frustrated, I heard a familiar voice next to me.

"A glass of rum, please." I turned my head toward the man. He looked at me a bit taken back by my appearance.

"I only came because you said it was about Tiana." He simply told me.

                 I couldn't help but smile a little. I wasn't feeling really jealous anymore around Giovanny. At first I hate him to be so close to Tiana but I've grown to understand that he was only seeing her as a sister and that he wanted to protect her as much as I would for my own sister. Sometime, I still envied him because he knew a whole part of Tiana's life that I didn't know and I would have loved to know and share with her. 

"Thanks, man.

-I haven't done anything for you to thank me." He said taking his glass from the barman and thanking him.

"Let's be clear, JongIn. I don't like you. I don't hate you either.

-I don't hate you either." I told him back.

"I don't know why you told me to come here but be quick, I'm working on an album.

-I called you to take some advice about Tiana. We don't get along these days, we can't understand each other so I thought that if I asked you maybe you would know the solution.

-And why do you think so?" He asked lifting an eyebrow.

"Because no matter how much it hurts me to know it, I can't deny that you sometime know her better than I do.

-It's true than I do.

-So, can you please help me? I know you would have liked Tiana to be with someone else but I really love her, Giovanny."I told him, eyes to eyes.

                He stayed silent for a moment. He probably didn't want to help me and was enjoying seeing me in this frustrated state after what I had done to Tiana but I could only hope he would help me for her sake and Jason's too. He took a big sip of his rum and slammed the glass down.