I Needed to, I Had to

Why couldn't it be me?

*JongIn's POV*

           I wasn't even able to focus on my work. When I was doing the meetings it was easier but now that I'm alone, my mind was flying to Tiana. I didn't talk to her yesterday and last time we talked she hung up so fast. I'm an asshole! These pictures were enough to make me go crazy. I thought that I could trust her but just some pictures and I'm already doing steps back. I sat on my bed and looked at my phone. I was about to tap on the 1 when I heard someone knocking on my door. I swear if it's some photos again, I'm running in this corridor to find the person who is having fun doing that.

          When I opened the door, it was something more unexpected that the person who send the photos. Just in front of me was a smirking Krystal. I rolled my eyes and was about to close the door but her smirk fast disappeared to let a panicked face replace it. She put her foot in the door preventing me from closing it.

"Damn! What do you want? What are you even doing here?

-Your father called me, he wanted me to talk to you while you're here. So I took a flight and came.

-Too bad, I'm determinate to stay with Tiana! You can go back to your duplex in Korea." 

           She sighed and put her hands on the door. She seemed really down and even thought she was totally against Tiana and I, she was still an old friend and...My first love. I didn't have any love for her anymore but I had that little feeling of friendship lingering to my heart. I sighed an opened the door wide, making her almost fall.

"Enter if you really want to talk. If not, you can leave!" She looked shocked but entered anyway. She sat on the sofa and I sat next to her but far enough for her to know that I wasn't doing that because of any bit of love.

"So? What did you want to talk about?

-I just don't understand.

-Understand what?

-We were fiancé, we were in love and....

-'We'? No, I was in love! You didn't love me and you damn know it!"  She lowered her head.

"Believe me JongIn. I tried! I really try. I thought I could fall in love with you and...

-No, you took as a replacement for him that all.

-I never took you as a replacement! It's true I was trying to forget him in your arms but you weren't a replacement!

-If you say so!"  She sighed seeing I wasn't buying any of that.

"What happened for you to stop love me for this..."  I gave her a warning stare.

"Sorry, I meant for Tiana?

-I saw you weren't in love with me. Tiana came one day in the studio as a representative of an american studio. At first I just find her attractive and it was a good distraction to my heartbreak. She was amazing, different and funny. I was just going to be her friend and before I could realize it, my heartbreak was healed and I had fallen for her just has she fell for me."  Krystal sighed and looked at her hands.