Winter's Widow

Chapter 50

Yay! The big 5 0!

Natasha's pov:

I peer outside at the 'friends' who are searching for me.

"Natalia." I hear a familiar voice form behind me.

I whip around and look at the soldier. He guessed I'd be in here.

"Hey, soldier." I greet him.

"Come back to the tower, we can talk-"

"No." I cut him off.

Clint and Tony rush up the stairs and stand behind Bucky, staring at me.

"Please, Natalia." The soldier begs.

"I am not Natalia. I am the Black Widow." I speak with an airy tone.

"Yes, you are, Natalia." He retorts.

"No. I am the Black Widow agent working for the KGB and Hydra." I huff.

"No, you're not. You are an agent of SHIELD." He slowly and cautiously steps closer.

"No, it's a lie. You never leave Hydra." My voice sounds kind of panicked.

"You aren't their prisoner anymore." He reassures me.

"There are no prisoners with Hydra. There is only order. With order comes pain." I huff.

"You are an Avenger now." He slowly steps closer again.

"No. It's a lie. I could never be an Avenger. I'm a monster." I narrow my eyes.

"No, you're not." he steps closer, and I step back.

"You and I are both monsters, soldier." I breathe.

"We are monsters that helped create the war, and now we help fight in it for the good side." He steps closer, and I step back towards the window behind me.

"No. It was the war that created the monsters." I correct him.

"Hydra made the war." He says.

"And we work for them."

"No, we don't Natalia." He snaps.

"Once for Hydra, always for Hydra. Monsters like us could only be of Hydras creation. We belong with the other monsters." I growl.

"No, we escaped! We are wiping our ledgers of the red they put there." He tries to calm me down.

"I am Hydra's Black Widow agent. You are their Winter Soldier. They gave us our names." I remind him.

"That doesn't mean we have to stay with them." He says.

"We are stuck with them. You and I will never be free." I speak heavily.

"We are not their prisoners anymore, Natalia listen to me!" He steps closer and I step back.

"We were never prisoners. There is only order with Hydra." I snap.

"We were held there against our will." He steps closer.

"There is only order." My voice starts sounding even more panicked.

"Order. There is only order. There is only order. There is only order. There is only order. There is only order." I back up into the wall.

"Natalia, calm down." He steps closer.

"I am not Natalia. I am the Black Widow. I am the Black Widow. I. Am. The. Black. Widow." I start hyperventilating.

"Natalia, stop! You're ok!" He is now standing right in front of me.

I quickly jump out of the window behind me that they didn't seem to take account for. I hit the floor and immediately start running. I rush down the sidewalk. I run into one of the numerous nearby alleys. Of course, the soldier follows me in. As planned. Take him down, the rest shouldn't be a problem. What I didn't account for was his friend Steve, who has blocked the other exit. Soon, all of the Avengers block the exits and I'm trapped.

This is not ideal.

Well shit! There goes my plan, wave your goodbyes!

"Natalia, we aren't going to hurt you. We want to help. You're an Avenger. You work for SHIELD, not Hydra." The soldier assures me.

"We are both with Hydra." I remind him.

"No, we're free." He repeats.

"...Soldier." I don an evil grin.

I have his full attention.

"тоска," I begin to say the special words.

His eyes go wide.

"Stop!" He panics and step closer.

"ржавые," I continue.

"Stop!" He shouts.

I hear everyone closing in on me. Time to panic. I fire up my Widow's Bite and take a defensive stance.

"семнадцать," I sound a little scared now.

"Please, Natalia we're here to help!" He begs and steps closer.

"рассвет," I hesitate when I say the next word.

"Please, Natalia! We're your friends, we're here to help you! Don't lock us out, please." He says something a bit familiar.

"печь," I don't want to finish the words for some reason.

"Please, Natalia. Listen to me, we're free." I can hear the terror in his voice.

"...девять," Something is telling me not to finish the words.

"Natalia..." He calls out for me.

I fire up my Widow's Bite a little more to scare them. Sparks fly from my clenched fists. They keep closing in on me.

"доброкачественные," I hear the panic in my own voice.

"Natalia, let us help you. We're on your side. I know you don't want to do this, and you don't have to." He keeps trying to calm me down.

"возвращение на родину," I find it harder and harder to speak with each word.

"Please, Natalia just listen. We're here, we wont let anything happen to you." His voice gets softer.

"один,"

"Natalia, please!"

I didn't realize how close he had gotten until he was holding both of my arms. He closes his eyes.

"грузовой ав..." I cut myself off.

"Natalia..." He calls again.

I'm surrounded. I'm trapped. There's no way out.

"... I'll die before capture." I stare at nothing.

"Natalia-"

I whip out the knife I had with me and drive it deep into my chest.

"...Hail Hydra..." I say before I collapse to the floor.

I hear yelling and panic.

Everything goes black.