Vista - Attack on Titan x Reader

CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT: Empty

***(Y/N) POV***

"Hey...don't push yourself too hard, kiddo! That shoulder of yours doesn't need any more damage!"

It was strange. I knew exactly what I was doing; flinging myself back and forth landing strikes on those titans, except I wasn't alone in my airspace.

"Woah, (Y/N), that's incredible! I've never seen you in action before! That lucky bracelet seems to be doing its job!"

I could almost see their faces, smiling at me from a place beyond. Somewhere I couldn't reach quite yet.

"If you need it, you can always count on me as a shoulder to lean on."

Their presence was giving me a headache, yet I couldn't decide whether they were a hindrance or a blessing.

"(N/N), you little trooper! Look at you, all grown up!"

I screamed out as I landed the finishing blow on the last of the larger titans, grappelling myself onto the side of the castle wall and staring at the smaller enemies below.
"We'll check on the recruits!" I glanced towards Lynne, one of the soldiers, who was making her way up with Henning. Remembering their names came as a bit of a surprise to me, but I shook that off as quickly as it came, turning my attention to something that was barreling through the sky, straight towards them.

Just like Cissy...

Mere feet away from me, one of the equine shelters exploded in a burst of splinters and straw where the horse's corpse landed, but I didn't flinch.
"What the hell..?!" Gelgar barked, almost drowning out that familiar whistle that was growing louder.

Strike...

"HENNING! LYNNE!" Their names were screamed when that boulder struck the edge of the roof, right where the pair had been climbing up. I didn't follow to check on them, as I knew there would be no chance of their survival. It was like I had finally; albeit temporarily, reached that emotionless state I had been craving for since that day in the titan forest. I didn't feel the least bit saddened by their demise, and I hoped I could keep it up until I either died along with them, or managed to get back home.

The beastly titan roared from its place on the wall, and it lit a fire within me. If I couldn't get to it, then I'd destroy whatever members of its kind I could reach instead. There were too many of them to count, but that was the least of my concerns. I wasn't in complete control of myself, and that meant that I was pushing it too far. My gear was running on fumes, and my final set of blades were growing duller by the second, but I couldn't stop.
"GELGAR!" I could hear Nanaba screaming, but it sounded so far away. Their voices weren't at the front of my mind like all the others were.

"Hey, dont'cha think you should take a break, Little Miss..? I'm worried about you..."

"You look kind of tired (Y/N)...It's probably a lot safer up there, on the roof...You could rest up..."

"I'll always carry you...but I can sense the exhaustion on you...You reek of it...Go to them..."

"Please, sis...Don't end up like the rest of us..."

My body knew where to take me. As I swung myself up towards the roof, I finally saw the brutal reality. Nanaba and Gelgar were being torn apart, and many more titans were on their way. I hadn't done a thing to save them, but I didn't feel as horrible as I should have in those moments.

Huh...That could've been any of us...

A pitiful yelp broke through my lips as I landed upon the stone floor, skidding and rolling until i hit the border on the other side. My shoulder throbbed, but i had managed to avoid injuring it too badly, for the time being. Connie was the first to reach me, lifting my up and checking me for any major wounds.