Vista - Attack on Titan x Reader

CHAPTER FIFTY SIX: Stubborn

"How long has it been since you actually slept, (Y/N)..?" Sasha asked me as she trotted her horse up to my side, a look of worry on her face as she watched me. It was understandable, seeing as I was basically laying on my mount's neck.

"Uh...I dunno...not much since we got framed..." I yawned, grip lose on the reins. "I'm good, though. Never felt better in my whole entire life." Obviously that was a lie. Keeping my eyes open was making them water, and my limbs felt like lead.

"Why not switch out with me and take a quick nap? My back's starting to hurt from sitting in here, anyway." Connie suggested, stretching his arms up over his head.
"I agree. We need you in top form." Mikasa added from the opposite side of the cart we had obtained.

Shaking my head, I pushed myself to straighten up, but my shoulders remained slumped. The ache was still ever present.
"Doubt I could sleep. I'd feel gross after a nap, anyway. Always do." That was the truth, at least. If it wasn't a full night of sleep, I felt disgusting when I woke up. Seemed more often than not, these days.

"Get your ass off that horse before I kick it off." Levi called from over his shoulder, though I couldn't quite see his face in the dark.
"Kick it, then. Maybe it'll give me a little boost." I snarked back, though it was flat.

Sleeping was difficult. It had been for a while, but after I had shot that woman, it had gotten even harder. It was like slipping into a deeper level of shit every time I closed my eyes.
"Don't be stubborn. What the hell are we gonna do if you're too sleep deprived to fight, huh?" Jean asked, leaning over the edge of the cart and swatting at my arm.

Why the hell does it matter? Have I contracted main character disease, or something? Yeesh...

Sticking my tongue out at the lot of them, I decided to continue being stubborn, but they had other plans. I was too exhausted to fight back as Connie sprung onto my horse behind me, reaching around to direct it closer to the cart. Whining, I cursed at him a little as Hange and Jean dragged me down, only letting go when I quit mouthing off.

"There, now that's settled, get some sleep while you can!" Hange chirped, giving my head a quick pat before returning to Moblit's side to continue whatever conversation they had been having. Seated next to Jean, I groaned, leaning over and resting my hands between my face and knees.

"Why the hell are you always so difficult?" He asked with a sigh, and I raked my hands down my face, only to drag them back up.
"Beats me. It's just in my design..." I replied, rubbing my eyes to try and rid them of the sting. "You can't talk. You went against orders and ended up falling flat on your face...and getting the brains knocked out of you."

Both Sasha and Connie snickered as they rode along beside us, but the copperet just clicked his tongue.
"Oh, drop it already! If I hadn't, then we wouldn't be this far along!" He was right. Still, teasing him was fun.

"True...but it was still hilarious. You were trying so hard, it was almost cute." Glancing over at him, I caught the hue of his face changing in the flickering lantern light.
"G..go to sleep already..!" He nudged me with his knee, and I very nearly faceplanted into the floor of the carriage.

"No. Everytime I close my eyes I see her damn face...among others..." I didn't have the strength to get into a verbal battle with Jean, which said alot. Being on the run, murdering someone, the fear of Erwin's death and the relief of his release, it had all added up. I waa running on fumes.

It was incredibly late, or early. I had lost track of times hours ago. We couldn't have been all that far off from the Reiss estate by now, not that I knew where it even was. Sleeping seemed stupid.