Typical

Chapter nineteen

Shawn's POV-

She was so close to me.

Only inches away and I don't think iv ever wanted and hated something so much.

Not her, no. I didn't hate Willow.

Not even close actually.

I hated how she made me feel.

"Come here"

The words fumbled off my lips and I didn't realize how sure of them I was until I heard them for myself.

She was cold, I didn't want her to be cold.

"My shirt" She laughed, looking down as her T- shirt rose to the surface, pulling it back down with her fingers.

"You don't.."

I stopped myself.

Being partially naked in front of me already seemed to effect her drastically.

But I didn't want to make her uncomfortable in front of Ian and Ally,

I knew though.

I knew why she was so scared.

"It's really beautiful here.."

Her eyes wondered the landscape, now only centimeters away.

I didn't want too.

Or maybe I did, but I couldn't admit it.

I let my hands gently find her hips below the surface.

Placing them, and tugging her body so it was against mine.

Her breath hitched and she gave me complete eye contact, looking up and down from my lips to my eyes.

Every fucking aspect of her drew me in, from the faint freckles above her cheek bones to the soft, yet beaten down skin on her knuckles.

She wasn't the type of girl you saw on t.v or in movies, she wasn't the type of girl you'd see at many party's, but she would always be invited. She wasn't the type of girl you saw and thought about fucking her.

No, Willow wasn't any of those things.

She was so much more.

She was the type of girl who would actually read the book for a report, even if there was a movie. She was the girl you read about in those books. She was the type of girl you'd see and feel emotion, instead of the urge for sex.

She was the type of girl you wanted to love.

But I couldn't love her.

"Yo Shawn"

Ian pulled me from my thoughts and I shot my head to him.

His eyes looked ahead at the shore, where two guys and three girls walked down.

"Fuck"

I mumbled, letting go of willows waist and hesitantly swimming back.

"What is it"?

Ally laid her head on Ian's shoulder from behind, hugging his chest.

"Fuck buddy alert"

He answered before I was a little too far to hear.

As soon as the words left him, Willows face sunk in confusion.

Amanda,

Amanda James was here.

My friend, with benefits.