Home is wherever i'm with you

I can't breathe, oh!

The rest of the week went fine, but because Mayas WBC was so low, they got her on neupogen, which gave her immens bonepain. It made moving hard and her independence got smaller.
She had to have the steriod treatment in her recovery week aswell, but only on monday and tuesday. Because of the pain, they added a pain medication in her regiment, which gave her some relieve so she could sleep alright. She pretty much slept all day on Wednesday and Thursday. Friday she felt better. She even played a cardgame with Meena and Louise.

In the evening Maya showed Carina what she had been working on with Andy. She had gathered all the things she knew about Mason and where he was and hired a PI to find him. So far, they didn't get very far. Just that he was homeless and going to a shelter at 42th sometime 7 years ago. He hasn't been there anymore. For what they know he could be dead and noone knew. But Maya tryed to remain positive about finding her brother.
They then watched a movie and cuddled. Maya had to blow her nose a few times. After the third time Carina lifted her head. "Bambina, do you have a cold?" "My Immunsystem is basically not existent. It had to happen some day. But i don't have a fever, i think." "If you get one, we have to go to the hospital." "I know, but i hope i don't. The girls birthday is next week." "Just because you might need to go in, doesn't mean you need to stay." "I feel so bad that they can not have a proper birthday party this year." "Don't feel bad. We might be able to have one in the summer." "I know, but all this social distancing and quarantining reminds me of the pandemic." "Oh don't remind me.  But Bambina, we don't mind. We just want to keep you safe." "I know. I just hate, that no matter how carefull you are i'll catch something anyway." Carina softly rubbed over Mayas shoulder. "I know, Bambina. We will be fine. I love you." Maya yawns. "I love you, too." "Lets go to sleep, bambina." Carina chuckles. "I have to take my painmeds." Maya felt like she was due. Carina looked at the clock and nodded. "I'll get them."

Maya took her meds and then walked upstairs slowly. It hurt tremendesly and she had to stop halfway leaning on Carina. "Maybe we should get the bed downstairs?" "No. I like having a room, where i can retreat to. Where its silent and private." "I get it Bambina, but you can barely get up the stairs." "I might need to wait for my painmeds to work first next time." Carina nodded. Maya took a deep breath. "Lets go." Maya said and they took the rest of the journey.

Maya sat down onto their bed and Carina helped her into PJs. Andy was staying in the guestroom since the Deluca-Bishops could use the help and she couldn't afford the apartment she had had with Domenik. While she was looking for a new place, she was staying with them. It was a win-win.

Carina went over to Andy and knocked. "Come in." She went in and sat down on Andys bed. "Whats up?" "Maya is hurting badly." "I know. The pain meds take the edge of for about 3 hours but she can only have them every six." Carina nodded. "She has a cold. I just wanted to let you know in case i need to take her to the hospital." "Do whatever you need. I got the girls. I can just work from here. I am not oncall until monday." "Okay. Thank you Andy seriously. I don't know what we would do without you." Carina smiled. "Of course. You guys are my family. Maya is my sister and the girls are the closest thing i have and will probably get to own kids. I love them and i love you all. You would do the same for me." "We would, but still. Thank you." "And also i would kind of be on the streets if i weren't here." "You always have a bed at ours." Carina smiled. "Good night." She said and got up. "Good night."

Carina got dressed for bed herself and curled up under her blanket. Maya had a warming blanket, it helped with the bonepain and while she loved being cuddled, it hurt too much right now, so Carina resorted to drawing paterns on her shoulder. When the painmeds finaly worked, Maya fell asleep.

"Charge to 200." Shock "still v-fib." "Charge again." Shock. "V-fib." "Charge to 300." Shock. "Asystole." "Starting chest compressions." Dr. Lindner towerd over her lifless body. He switched with his resident. After a while he shook his head. "No. No!!!No!!!" Carina screamed.

She shot up and panted. Her chest was close and she gasped for air. Maya had been woken, by the scream. She switched a light on to be able lipread. "Hey. Hey. I am okay. You are okay. Breathe. Breathe." Maya placed Carinas hands to her chest to feel her heartbeat. Her regular very steady heartbeat. Showing that Maya was in fact still alive. Still breathing, her heart still beating.
"Hey. Its all good." Maya rubbed Carinas back as Carina sobbed in Mayas embrace. "Its all good." "You died." Carina sobbed. "Your heart stopped." "I am here, i am okay. Feel my heart." Maya carefully put Carinas head on her chest. "Breathe, my love. Its all good." Carina calmed a little and got off of Mayas chest. Maya answered with a violent cough. "Oh, Bambina." "Its okay." Maya said. She grabed her waterbottle and took a big sip. "How are you feeling?" Carina asked. "I am okay. Its just shortly after midnight, the painmeds are still working." "Okay, sleep Bambina." "How are you feeling?" "Hm.." "Carina, be honest." "Not good. I am so anxious. I feel sick." "I am sorry, my love. What can i do to help?" "Hold my hand? Music maybe?" "Of course." Maya squeezed Carinas hand and pulled her close. "Close your eyes." Maya said and put on the sleep playlist they had. "I love you." Maya wanted to wait until she heard the familiar deep breaths, to let herself sleep, but the tiredness was too powerfull.

Carina slept quite well, but after about three hours she woke up again. There was no nightmare and so she listend for what had woken her up. What she heard, was scary. Mayas breathing was laboured and she was wezzing. "Bambina. Hey." Maya was still asleep. Carina switched her light on. "Maya. Wake up." Maya opened her eyes and immediatly broke out in a coughing fit. "Can you breath alright?" Maya shook her head gasping. "It hurts." Tears were springing to her eyes and she pressed her hands to her chest. Carina jumed out of her bed and put some clothes over her PJs. "lets go to the ER. Can you get up, Bambina?" Carinas voice was laced with worry. Mayas paniked eyes looked for Carina, who held out her hands to help her up. Maya was hit with a wave of pain and a dizzyspell, that forced her down again. Her skin was very hot. Carina lowered her back on the bed, even with how little she weighed after loosing so much to the treatment, it was still too much to get her down the stairs safely. So Carina jumped up and ran over to Andys room."Wait here, Bambina."

"Andy, wake up. Maya struggles to breath. She can't get up. I need you to carry her to the car. She needs to go to the ER now." Andy was up immediatly and followed Carina in their bedroom. Maya looked so sick. Carina ran the thermomenter over Mayas forehead. "104,8." Andy picked her up and carried her down the stairs. Carina quickly packed a bag with some clothes for Maya, phonechargers, hearing aids and a blanket and followed them. When Andy carried the blonde down the stairs, she could feel her shaking, eventhough her skin was boiling hot and the wezzing and catching breaths was very concerning. Andy placed Maya in the car and took the blanket form Carina to drape it over her. "Take care, Maya. Don't die. Do you hear me?" "I am not..." Maya rasped out, but it made her chest hurt badly. "Don't talk. We'll talk later. Love you, bye."
"Drive carefully." Andy said to Carina. "I will. Take care of the kids and i'll call you as soon as we know something." "Yes. Go." Andy said and Carina started the Car.