Leah and her soldier

Dead to me

~Leah's POV~
I arrive at at Jordan's and now I'm steaming with rage. I bang on her door "hi Leah what are you doing here?" "Why did you do it Jordan?" "Come in" "I DON'T WANT TO COME IN JUST TELL ME" "I wanted you back Leah I missed what we had." I never thought she would admit it "let me tell you this Jordan me and you are never going to happen get that in your head, your dead to me" "Leah that's not fair" "FAIR I LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THROUGH YOU!" "But your the love of my life" "you had your chance and blew it I just hope I can fix my chance." I walk away and go home trying to figure out a plan.

I go to bed quite late which in turn makes me sleep in which then makes me late for training. "Why you late Leah your never late" "I've been coming up with a plan to get Chris back or at least just speak to her" "how are you going to do that Leah?" "That's where I need your help Steph" "me why me?" "Because you believed in us from the start please Steph I have to try" "what do you need me to do?" "Well after doing an online search for Christina I found there is a Christina Taylor that owns a gym in St Albans I need you to see if it is hers" "that's very stalker like" "I don't care please Steph" "ok when do you want to do it?" "Is straight after training too soon?" "Jesus Leah" "please Steph" "ok fine we will go" "I owe you so much." Today I decide to fly through training then me and Steph go to the gym and it is impressive I love the name with the slogan 'evolution... forever changing' we walk in and there is another quote on the wall 'change your mindset and everything else will fall into place' there is this middle aged woman sat behind the desk "hi welcome to evolution my names Catherine how can I help you?" "Oh erm I'm looking for a new gym and heard about this place" "oh that's great news let me just see if we have a trainer available to show you around" "thank you" she goes on her computer "right so Tony is in a session, ermmm Joey is off today, Chris where are you at? Hmmmm ahhh right so Christine will be finished her session oh wait they cancelled so yeah Christine I will phone her now, hi Christine there is a young lady here looking for a new gym. Ok see you soon. Christine is on her way down" me and Steph look at each other and I just sigh "it can't be her then" "we can't just leave now this person is on her way down." We are standing there talking "ahhh Christine she is just over there" "how many times Catherine it's Chris even my mum calls me Chris" omg it is Chris I'd know her voice anywhere I just freeze "ok Chris then" "thank you now I brought you a cup of tea and you better make sure your using that heater" "they are too expensive to use" "Catherine don't make me move your reception upstairs where it is warmer turn that heater on now" "ok ok youth of today never listen."

~Chris' POV~
I look over at the 2 girls standing in my reception one has her back to me and the other is Steph Catley what the? Wait that means the other is Leah shit what do I do? Leah quickly leaves "Steph?" "Chris it's so good to see you again" "yeah you too but erm what are you doing here?" "I wanted to see you" "I'm guessing Leah changed her mind?" "How did you?" "Come on Steph I know Leah I know what she looks like from the front from the back, how she walks, and how she runs" "of course" "should we go up to my office?" "Yes please." As I walk past Catherine I see she has the heater on which makes me smile, she is such a lovely woman. We go upstairs to my office "this place is amazing Chris and it seems to be thriving" "thank you Steph how did you find me?" "Leah found you" "but why though?" "Because she loves you Chris" "yeah clearly" "we saw the photo's and they really didn't look good Chris" "I didn't see the photo's Steph she wouldn't show me then she believed her ex over someone she is supposed to love so now I know who she holds closer" "that's not true Chris she has been a mess for the last 4 months" "am I supposed to feel bad for her? I was drinking 2 bottles of whiskey everyday, I had to have my stomach pumped after taking an overdose, I am now in therapy for more than just the army, I stopped going to my physio, I never left the house for 3 weeks then spend another 3 weeks being babysat to make sure I did nothing stupid, that's when I came up with the idea for this place" my phone starts ringing "sorry it's just my mum, hi mum" "hi sweetheart Catherine told me that your session cancelled so I thought I would give you a ring" "liar your checking to make sure I took my tablets" "and have you?" "Mum you don't have to worry I'm on the straight and narrow I took them this morning and lunch time I have them in my bag to bring to yours and ordered more because I'm going to run out through the Christmas so they are ready to collect I promise I am doing good mum" "ok sweetheart I love you" "I love you too and tell Kieth to get the games ready" "will do." "Sorry she is forever worrying about me now" "I can't blame her do you mind if I ask what tablets she is on about?" "Anti depressants and anti anxiety to stop me from overthinking" "why did you cut us all out?" "So I had nothing to do with Leah at all I had to do it otherwise things would still not be good, plus I was a mess the only people I saw was Emily, Kieth, mum, Kat and Freya and I barely remember it" "we miss you at the games" "I miss going to the games but I can't go back Steph I'm sorry but I can't. If it wasn't for this place I don't know where I would be" "I understand Chris." There is a knock on the door "come in, Jemma we don't have a session today" "I know but you close for the Christmas today and I wanted to give you this" she hands me a big box wrapped up "noooo, Jemma what's this?" "Your Christmas present open it please" "but it's not Christmas" "pleaseeee" "only because your my top client" I open the box there is a big teddy bear a jewellery box like a bracelet so I open it and it is a crystal bracelet "it's to help create positive thoughts" "that's very thoughtful thank you very much" "well I know what your like with your healing crystals you have them all over the gym and noticed the scars on your arms and that you didn't have this bracelet so I hope that's ok" I feel Steph's eyes staring into the side of my head "it is very thoughtful I will sort its energy out when I get to mums you know being the last day and all my energies are everywhere" "I understand but there is more in there under the teddy" I pull the teddy out and I freeze there is a bottle of vodka and a big very expensive box of chocolates "I can't accept these it's too much" "no you can you have helped me so much Chris" what to do what to do I can't have these in the house but I don't want to hurt her "ok I tell you what I will only if I can take them to my families on Christmas Day and share them can't be cheating on my diet" "deal" "ok well again thank you very much" "I will see you in the new year Chris" "that you will." Jemma leaves and I close the door "what are you going to do with that alcohol Chris?" I phone my mum "mum I have just been given a gift I am going to give it to you as soon as I get to yours ok" "you sound panicked what's going on sweetheart" "my heads feeling a little frazzled and Jemma just gave me a bottle of vodka" "Chris" "I feel in control at the moment I'm at work so things to focus on but I am coming straight to yours" "why did you accept it?" "I didn't want to hurt her mum when I said I couldn't accept it she looked hurt and it's Christmas so couldn't do that to her" "you promise me you won't touch it?" "I haven't even took it out of the box" "and you're closing early today?" "Yeah in an hour actually" "ok well I'm proud of you and I love you" "love you too mum." I hang up "sorry I'm in full disclosure with everyone when it comes to alcohol and my head is not in a good place I have no control" "you said your heads a little frazzled is that because I'm here?" "A little yes and because I know Leah is sat outside" "and the scars?" I show Steph my arm "I thought it would help me cope and it did for a while but then it didn't. My therapist has said I have a very addictive personality which is why I got hooked on drink so quickly" "Chris I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you you've always been there for us" "it's not your fault Steph don't worry about it I'm doing so much better" "I'm glad to hear that."

Me and Steph sit and talk until it's time to close up the gym. I turn everything off then lock up walking out with Steph and Catherine "before you go Catherine I have a little something for you" I go to my car and get Catherine's present "I want you and you husband to open this together and enjoy. Thank you for sticking with me the last month and a half" she gives me a hug "have a lovely Christmas and new year" "you too Catherine" she gets in her car and leaves so I go back to Steph "thank you for stopping by to see me Steph" "thank you for not kicking me out, Chris will you unblock me on instagram?" "Probably best I don't Steph just in case I can't cope with the photo's of Leah" "ok I understand so will you unblock my number" "but your Leah's friend though Steph" "I'm yours also Chris never forget that" "ok I will unblock your number Steph but I need to get to my mums now or she will start worrying" "I'll see you soon Chris" "yeah see you soon." I give Steph a hug and when I look up I end up locking eyes with Leah and she gives me a slight smile but I just look down turning to walk back to my car.

~Steph's POV~
"Take your time Steph" "sorry Leah but you asked me to go in there" "how she doing then?" "Better than she was Leah, she clearly still loves you very much and is nowhere near being over you though" "that might be a good thing for me then" "be careful with her Leah she is very fragile" "what do you mean fragile?" "She's had a drinking problem, she did take an overdose, her arm is covered in scars, she is in therapy Leah and not just because of the army" "scars? Off what?" "Off where she hurt herself Leah to try and cope" "I really fucked her up didn't I?" "I would say more Jordan did" "don't mention her she is dead to me."