Polarized Antagonism

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Cameron

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK

THAT IS SO FUCKING EMBARASSING!!! WHY THE FUCK DID I SAY ALL THOSE THINGS! I SOUND SAPPY AS FUCK!!!

REALLY CAMERON? " They say that when you love someone you should be happy for them. I think that's bullshit. Why would I be happy if the someone I love is not with me. "

ANO AKO GRADE 8 STUDENT?! ONLY SHAMELESS KIDS SAY THAT SHIT!

I'M SO GROSS! WHAT'S GOTTEN IN TO ME! I WISH SOMEONE WOULD JUST KILL ME ALREADY!!

" I'm selfish and I might do something bad if i continue feeding myself negative emotions... So before you hate me by being the friend you wanted me to be... I'm removing myself from this situation. "

COCK FUCKING TWAT

Jesus fucking Christ. That's why I hate talking about feelings. It doesn't sound good even if you romanticized all that shit inside your head.

Ang cringe ng mga sinasabi ko. Ang kadiri lang parang gusto ko na lang magbigti mamaya sa kwarto ko.

As per usual my brain betrays me by remembering all those stuff i said.

FUCK! I need to get out of here and bash my head in to a wall or something.

I ran to the parking lot as fast as i could. Baka makita ko pa si Naomi if i loiter around here. Mas lalong nakakahiya.

" Hey! Watch where you're going! "

Ah. May nabangga pala ako.

" Shut the fuck up, nerd! I'm in a hurry! " sigaw ko pabalik sa kaniya.

Stupid bitch. Hindi kasi siya tumatabi sa daan.

Mabilis akong pumasok sa kotse ko and started the engine.

" I love you Naomi. Please be happy without me. "

I can't take this anymore. This is the most embarrassing thing I ever did in my entire life.

I bashed my head to the steering wheel hoping for a concussion.

HONK

HONK

HONK

" E-excuse me. Are you okay ? "

What the fuck is he doing here? I don't even know this guy. Can he like stay away from my car and from me. I'm trying to kill myself.

" Fuck off! "

I started the car and drove myself to the exit as fast as I could. Hindi ko na kayang tumagal sa lugar na to. Mamatay ako sa kahihiyaan!

I pressed my gas to 40 dahil wala naman masyadong sasakyan ang umaalis. One of the few things i found tolerable in our school is the parking space. Malawak at hindi nakakalito ang parking lot dito. I heard that some students from other school transfer here because apparently, may mga naaksidente na mga students sa mismong parking lot nila dahil na lang sa sikip at mga bigla na lang sumusulpot na tao sa likod ng mga kotse.

Those things never happens here in. Unless if there's someone dumb enough to cross the exit out of nowhere—-

" OUCH!!! "

See, just my luck.

Fuck. Do I have to go check kung sino yung nabangga ko. I mean, even though I hit that person, hindi naman masyado malakas ang impact. It was just a bump.