Polarized Antagonism

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Cameron

I can't be in our house for too long. The place seems so empty when Lucia is not around. It's been 8 days since she left for California and I haven't received a single text from her if she's doing okay there or whatever.

Bakit pag walang kwenta yung mga bagay na gusto niyang sabihin sa akin, itetext niya ako? Pero kung kailan niya kailangan niya mag text sa akin kung ayos lang ba siya dun hindi niya magawa?

She's driving me crazy.

Ever since that Christmas morning when we almost kissed, I can't stop thinking of her. She acted like everything was normal between us bago siya umalis, so I did the same. But I wonder if I'm the only one who overthinks to what happened.

I'm so lame. Para akong virgin na nerd.

I could really use someone to talk to. Mom already left for work pagkatapos ng New Year, so Yaya Dalia is the one who supervises me again. She brought pasalubong from her province called Pinagong? It's like a bread that kinda looks like a turtle shell or something and coconut brittle. It was delicious.

Yaya Dalia is the only one who I can talk about these uneasy feeling I have in my gut pero pinapagalitan niya ako kasi ang laki ng eye bags ko.

Can you blame me? I'm up all night repeating the same scenario over and over again.

She's being annoying kaya I decided to leave the house and talk to someone.

Ayoko naman abalahin si Naomi sa problem ko, so I called Bobby na lang but unfortunately, he is still in Paris together with Chihiro's family.

Imagine how pissed Chihiro is. Haha. I want to see the look in her face.

I've had about two friends kaya mukhang mag-isa lang ako.

Dang it.

I found myself eating in a cafe where Naomi, Joe and Yoi eats nung junior high school pa kami. Matagal na din akong hindi nakabalik dito pero wala naman masydong nagbago.

I took a seat near the window and ate the food I ordered. May stack ako ng pancakes, strawberry cream na crepe, french toast, at 3 cheese burger. For my drinks, I ordered one vanilla milkshake and water.

The amount of food will last me until lunch. This is good.

" Aww, look at her! Eating like a feral child. "

I felt a pang of headache as soon as I heard that voice. It's amazing how my body reacts to how much I hated Yoi.

Hindi man lang nila ako tinanong kung puwede ba sila umupo sa table ko, they already helped themselves and called the waitress.

" Joe, what do you want? " Yoi asked, holding the menu board.

Joe was just someone who often hangs around with Naomi. He's not necessarily my friend but he always gives his two cents about everything like he's some lawyer or some shit. For some reasons, he's staring at me.

I can't swallow my food if some ugly bastard is being a dick.

" What? " i put down my fork and knife and sat straight.

" Nothing. " he mouthed.His stare just got intense.

" Nothing my ass. Why are you even sitting here? Ginugulo niyo ko. "

" Don't say that Camz. We're like friends kaya! And besides there are no seats available. " Yoi interrupted.

Tumingin ako sa paligid at lahat ng table ay occupied na. Damn it.