Just a short warning, may be a little heavy. But hope you's enjoy.
November's pov.
"How was your week Nova?" Tristan asks me pretty much as soon as I enter the room.
I place my bag by the door and then my phone on the bookshelf and my cardigan on the sofa. Sitting down in the chair opposite him I send him a quick and easy smile.
"It's not been too bad."
"Have you kept a mood diary?" Tristan asks and I send him a guilty look.
"Nova..."
"I just, I feel fine. All the time. Average 5. I don't see why I have to write that down."
He sits back on his chair and gives me a small smile. "It's to keep record. And can you elaborate on the feeling at a 5 all the time?"
"I wasn't being serious." I say and he cocks his head at me.
"I feel like you might have been."
Well okay then, right to it I guess.
"Okay it's just, I feel fine all the time. Just, obviously there are moments in the day that feel good, or I get pissed off but then it just dwindles away."
"And you feel bad?" He asks and I shake my head.
"No I just, there's nothing. I am just stable."
"We like stability." Tristan says and I roll my eyes, this is why I don't say anything.
"Don't roll your eyes." He laughs gently and nods for me to continue.
When I don't he says. "Are you not enjoying stability?"
"I just." I breathe. I haven't said this before. "It's a bit boring. Like I don't feel anything, or well I do I guess but it's not, it's not as intense."
"You used to feel a lot." He starts and I nod.
"Exactly, I used to feel so much and I just, I'm not saying I like instability I'm just saying I think I miss it."
"Nova that is actually really common."
"Oh?" I say surprised, I have been feeling like a freak.
"Can you describe to me how the medication has made you feel?" He asks and opens his notebook.
"A little flat." I say and slide my shoes off. Pulling my legs up to my chest as I get comfier, smaller, on the armchair.
"Flat?"
"Just, it feels good not being so all over the place. But I don't know... I'm not feeling enough now." I say watching his face. Does that even make sense?
He flicks through my file and nods to himself.
"You are on a high dosage Nova, we could look into lowering it."
"No." I say, shaking my head quickly.
His eyes dart back up to mine and I cringe.
"Here's the other thing." I breathe.
"Ok?"
"I am worried it's getting bad again." I whisper looking away.
"I thought you were feeling flat?" He asks, challenging my earlier words.
"I am." I sigh looking back up to him. I was confused myself.
"Explain it to me Nova?"
"I have been doing stupid things. Going out at night, drinking more, sleeping with people I shouldn't."
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