Random Imagines

77 - Drew Starkey ( Outer Banks )

" Y/n Y/l/n for the first time has spoken out about the abuse she received as a child from her parents. We have her here today to talk about it, " Erin tells the announce, I smile towards her, and she looks over at me. " This is the first show back in the studio, and I'm so happy for it to be you. Now let's look at the Instagram post that made many open their eyes, " she adds. 

My post of me on the dock for one of the Outer Banks scenes come up, and the group sitting around me while I tell them. 

I am a survivor from the age of 3 to the age of 17 I was abused by my parents. I never once talked about the horrors in that household, because I don't want to remember them. We had a hard scene where Rudy or JJ, shows the bruises from his father. And I instantly broke down, having to walk away as the scene was called. Slowly all of my friends came over. First Drew, then Rudy, followed by JD and Austin, and then Maddie and Mads. 

All completely worried about what happened, and I looked over at Drew with tears in my eyes and said the following. 'I know how it feels to be in that position, because I was a 16 year old kid being abused by a parent'. Which made all of their hearts break, and I told them stories. Where there was a few good times, but my childhood was surrounded by horror, drugs, alcohol, and abuse. I was an only child, my other siblings were with their dad. At the age of 17, my father placed me in the hospital, and I nearly died. 

My story is like many others, and sadly some of them never escape. I did escape, because of the wonderful nurse at the hospital that realized I was abused and I was being abused by my parents. I spent the next 4 months recovering, getting a therapist, and trying to find me a home. I reached out to my brother and sister and in an instant they were there with my dad. 

I am a survivor, and I'm lucky to be alive. And I'm happy I'm alive. 

" What made you post this? " Erin asks me. 

" My father passed away, due to an overdose, and car crash. He overdosed while driving, and died at the scene. I know how terrible it sounds, but I escaped the prison I thought I would never escape. I was trapped in this life, and even though I was far away from them. I had things in place that would let my parents never touch me again. But I still felt unsafe, I felt like at any moment... at any moment they could come back, " I tell her, she hands me a tissue. And I thank her. 

" If you're comfortable, how was that day like? " She asks. 

" It was rough, we had done multiple scenes with abuse from parents. That was the day my character drowned and Drew's character saved her, it was a lot mentally. And then that scene, where Rudy did an excellent job. And it brought me to tears, because I remember a moment where I was being beaten almost to death by my father. My mother did abuse me, but my father did a lot more than my mother. And I wanted to finish the scene I was pushing through, if you listen very closely to can hear me saying 'I can't watch this', and I begin to walk away. And that's when cut was called, and Drew who the lovely man he is was the first one to come over and grab a hold of my hand made sure I was okay. I hadn't talked about any of that in 2ish years, I have a lot trauma from those days, and so it just spilled out. Where I cried a lot, and so did they. But it was nice being able to talk to them about the trauma I went through, " I tell her. 

" What is something you want to say? " She asks. 

" If you're in a situation like I was, or you know someone in a situation like I was. You can help them, and you can get out. It's hard, you're going to have a lot of rough days. But just remember the little moments, the moments to smile about. I mean it's been 2 years and I still have bad days, but looking at the OBX cast it makes me smile. From Drew's random dancing to Austin's weird drum shows to Madelyn's encouraging words. It's the small moments that you'll remember, " I comment. " And now I don't hold a grudge against my parents, they were both very messed human beings. And in some twisted way they did love me, and I have forgiven them. But just because I forgave them doesn't mean I'm going to forget, " I comment towards her, which causes her to nod as I continue on talking. 

" Why did you not tell anyone? " She asks, wow she's really going into it. 

" I was scared, of course my family knew what was going on. As in my dad and my brother and sister, but when I was younger my father always told me oh it's a game this is our game keep it a secret, so I didn't tell anyone else, " I tell her, after our conversation I headed back home, being greeted by Drew. 

" Hey, " I tell him, he moves towards me and hugs me. He knew today was that interview, and I'm still very sensitive when it comes to my childhood. " Drew I'm alright, it's something that I'm now finally getting to a point where I can talk about it, " I add. 

" I know... I just, why would someone do that to you? You're the most amazing girl in the world, I mean do you know how many people have a crush on you? How many of them love you, why would someone do such horrible things to you? " He asks me. 

I just lightly smile, wrapping my arms around his neck. " I'm not sure, but it doesn't matter. All that matters now is that I'm away from them, they can never hurt me again. And also with all of those people who like me and love me. It doesn't matter to me, all that matters is that you love me, " I tell him, he looks at me and chuckles leaning down and kissing me. 

" I do love you, " he whispers. 

" I love you too, " I whisper back to him. 

It's nice knowing I have someone who will always have my back, and I'm so glad he's the one I'm fighting all of my battles and demons with.