Random Imagines

108 - Christian Seavey ( YouTube )

I watched as he kissed her and I made my way out of the room, not bringing any attention to myself. I needed to get out of there. I know someone is following me, and I turn to see Ryan. " You alright? " He asks me, I slowly nod towards him. " I know you're not, " he adds. He grabs a hold of my wrist and pulls me into a hug. And I instantly being to sob. 

" I just want it to be me, " I whisper to him. 

" I know, " he mutters to me. Ryan is like a big brother to me, he's one of the most supporting people you will ever meet in your life. Truly I'm so thankful I have him in my life. 

He's one of the only ones who know my actual feelings towards Christian. " It's going to be okay, you're going to fine somebody. I promise, and he's stupid for not seeing your full potential okay? Because you're amazing, " he comments to me. I continue to lightly cry into his chest. He's just holding onto me, and let me get out all of my emotions. 

We stand outside for a little bit longer, " you gonna come back in? " He asks, I give him a nod. 

" Yeah just give me a little bit, I just need some time alone, " I tell him, he gives me a nod and walks back inside. I stand out there just looking up trying to get myself fully together before stepping back into the madness. 

It's hard hiding my feelings towards him, but I try my best because I'm not losing him as a friend. It's not an option, and I just have to deal with that pain of him maybe loving someone else. And wanting someone else, and yes it's torture. It's the worst type of torture, but I've been dealing with it for almost a year now. I think I know to handle it. And I'm learner as the days go on. 

I walked back in and of course the first person I make eye contact with is Christian. Just act cool, don't do anything stupid. Just act like nothing happened. I really need to get over him, I need to move on. It's time to move on, obviously nothing is going to happen anymore between the two of us. I was just a number to him, an excuse he had in the night. 

" Okay... hey we might need you for the next game, " Kian tells me, I give him a nod. " You alright? I saw you stepped outside, " he adds. 

" Yeah I'm alright, just had to get some air, " I comment, he nods towards me. He gives me a side hug, and kisses my head. And I just smile towards him. 

" You know you can always talk to me about anything. Love you, " he tells me. 

" I love you too, " I comment back. 

I'm close with all of the boys, all of them are amazing and I'm glad to have every single one of them in my life. Kian and I have been friends for a long time, and he's as well like a big brother to me. 

I wasn't fully needed, I was just there holding stuff for Kian. I'm a lot of big help as you can see. Christian has been nonstop looking at me since I got back inside. And I'm sure he's going to ask me why I went outside, and I'm still trying to come up with a 'valid' excuse for him. Because if I say I needed some air he wouldn't believe me one bit. He can read through me like a book, which isn't always the best thing. 

By the end of the day I am now packing things up to go home, I also need to get a few things before filming starts tomorrow. " Y/n! " I turn to see Christian running down to catch up with me. " Are you alright? You were acting kinda weird, " he adds, I give him a nod. " You sure? " He asks. 

" Yeah Christian I'm fine, just tired. It's been a hard day with everything, " I comment, he slowly nods his head towards me. " I should get going, I'll see you tomorrow, " I add. 

" Y/n wait, I know something isn't right. Why are you being so cold with me? " He asks, shit. 

" I'm not being cold with you Christian, I'm just tired, " I comment. He grabs a hold of my hand pulling me closer to him. " Christian... " I begin, he quickly cuts me off.